he created me ᵛᵐᵒⁿ

chapter 30

¤my zombie brother¤

Taehyung was sitting on the porch drinking peached Tea. He chuckled at himself because he Tae was drinking tea. It was early in the morning and he wanted to watch the sunrise and feel the crisp cold morning air blush his cheeks. He swirled the straw around in the cold cup. He preferred warm tea to cold tea, but he was feeling rather lazy and exhausted from trying to be mad at Namjoon.

He got where both of them were coming from. He did. He couldn't stop thinking about Yoongi and how distressed utterly broken. He sighed feeling guilty for being mad, but they didn't know what Yoongi was going through. He just knew the man was beating himself and feeling utterly betrayed. Not like he didn't do it to Namjoon before. Some sick form of payback?

God, he hoped that Namjoon wasn't playing this game just to hurt Yoongi. He had changed so so so much. "Tae?" a small voice called from the swinging back door. He took his gaze off of the mountains and looked back to the house. Jimin was standing in the door holding it open with one hand and the other on the bump. Tae smiled "why are you up so early? Go back to bed" he said standing up to usher the pregnant man back inside to rest. Tae had noticed slight swelling in his feet.

Ignoring Taehyung Jimin walked around him and out onto the wooden porch. "Are you mad at me?" he asked meekly.

Tae furrowed his eyebrows. Was he mad at Jimin? No, just concerned. "Of course not. I'm...I just...I'm just concerned is all" he said. "But I heard you fighting with Namjoon," Jimin said softly caressing the baby bump that was peaking out of his sleep shirt. Tae would probably need to go into town to buy him some new ones.

"Jimin. I'm not mad at you. Okay?" he held Jimin's shoulders lightly "I'm just thinking about the bigger picture and I wanted you two to be aware of everything" he was looking deep into Jimin's wavering eyes "What Namjoon and I were arguing about had nothing to do with you" he promised "he just royally pissed me off is all" he said making the other smile lightly.

Jimin pulled Tae into a tight hug. Tae had to bend awkwardly because the bump was pressing into his tummy. "Thanks," Jimin said. Tae patted his head and ducked down hugged the little bump "It's going to be fun" he said kissing it "I'm going to be the best uncle ever" he declared.

"Of course," Jimin said, "Nobody would be better than my zombie brother" he joked and Tae smacked his arm "more like Frankenstein brothers" they giggled at their stupid jokes. They were able to be easy with each other because they were related in ways unknown to another. Tae placed another kiss on the tummy whispering "I can't wait to see you"

"I was thinking about taking one of those weird baby birthing classes that are always on those chick flicks" Jimin suggested "I mean it would help because honestly we are going to have to birth here" he smiled "Want to do it with me?"

Tae sighed "Just because I agree to do it with you doesn't mean that I approve of you not telling Yoongi" Jimin nodded his head and his sheepish smile taking up his face.

"What are you guys doing out here it's early?" Namjoon asked stretching had just gotten up to an empty house. Tae was still practically around Jimin's waist hugging the smaller man. He just turned his head and burrowed it in Jimin's chest giving him one last hug. "just talking" Jimin said hugging Taehyung. Namjoon nodded as if understanding that he had interrupted something.

"Jimin" Tae spoke up pulling back "I'm going into town to pick you up some new shirts and food," he said pulling at the hem of the shirt showing him that he needed a new one "Do you want anything specific?"

"Um, maybe some more fruit" he suggested and Tae nodded.

"Actually I needed to go into town as well," Namjoon said "I'll drive you there" he was looking at Tae to see how he was going to react, but he didn't. He just leads Jimin back inside and started changing clothes like nothing was happening.

Tae was sitting in the car and Namjoon was driving to the city after setting up all the alarms. Not the one that could blow up the house because Jimin was in there. He saw a turn-off and he took it and stopped the car putting his hazards on and locking the doors. 

Tae swiftly turned to look at him. Namjoon turned so that he could see the younger better "let's just get this over with" he suggested.

"All ears" Tae said crossing his arms.

"Okay. I can see where you are coming from. I do Tae. You want Yoongi to see his baby, I get that. But Jimin is the most important one in this choice" he spoke calmly.

"Okay and I get that, but Yoongi is breaking apart. You could see it. He looked like he was just served the most fucked up dish of revenge" Tae said "I care about Jimin's choice, but I want you both to know that it isn't just about Jimin. It takes two to make a baby. Just because Yoongi isn't carrying it doesn't mean he isn't carrying anything. He is carrying the burden of fucking over the one he cares about most" his little speech over he waits for Namjoon to speak.

"Okay," Namjoon said "Now that we know where each other stands please tell me why you think I don't care about you," he said as if he was shattering just speaking the words. He sounded so weak and vulnerable, but him opening up showed that he was so strong.

Tae nervously bit his lips "I... I keep thinking about how I was treated when I first came to life. I was an object, a pet, an experiment.  Then this happened" Tae said gesturing between the both of them "Then sometimes you just don't value what I have to say" he sighed "I guess it was this Jimin thing that made me realize it" he said.

"I..." Namjoon ran his fingers through his hair "I didn't mean to hurt your feelings when I pushed you out of my lap" he said furrowing his eyebrows.

"Namjoon!" Tae cried out "It isn't just about that," he said turning his head to look outside of the car and took several deep breaths before continuing "it isn't just that" he started off calmly "sometimes you don't listen to what I say. Remember that one time I asked if we could go on a date here and you told me that I would probably scare people with my scars...remember I said that we could just say that I was in a car accident and you told me that was stupid...you made me feel stupid Joon and I'm not stupid" Taehyung shuddered "you look down on me. You don't look down on people you love, Joonie, it isn't right. I'm just as you or anyone else regardless of how I was brought into this world"

Namjoon was taking shallow breaths as he watched Tae spill out his heart. He knew he was doing it. A rather obnoxious habit he would claim. Every time he would look at the boy he would see what he had accomplished. He had accomplished his own happiness despite everyone's predictions. He was pretty sure Jungkook thought he would die lonely for awhile too. "Tae" he called softly to get his attention  "I am sorry" his bottom lip quivering, he didn't cry "I don't do it on purpose. I love you and I do see you as an equal" he never cried, Tae was the one who cried "I just look at you and I see how amazing you are and realize that I created that. I created that sparkle in your eyes everytime you look at my face, everytime you wake up, every time I make you happy. I helped make that" a few tears fell out of the corners of his eyes "not even my own mother thought I would find somebody to love me" he shuddered and hit the steering wheel "Nobody thought that I would find you Tae and to think I did it myself" he chuckled.

"Joonie" Tae said grabbing his white knuckles from the wheel "I will never stop loving you" he whispered and Namjoon rolled his head to gaze into Taehyungs eyes "No matter what anyone thinks, so don't try to force me to still be your creation" he said "I'll be yours as a person and you'll be mine" he said.

"you're mine," Joon said.

"and you're mine" Tae finished. "and now we have to hurry because Jimin is alone" causing both boys to laugh. Sharing a quick kiss and Joon putting the car back in gear and leaving.

Tae would be looking into Joon's family.