who are you? | sprousehart

i am not the person you think i am

we've come a long way since me living at Cole's place in L.A. we have started shooting riverdale and we are going to shoot the last episode today. I now live with madelaine because we haven't told the cast (besides cami) yet.
message to cole😍😘

good morning baby

good morning❤️
what episode are we filming today?

episode 13
you know what that means😏

stooooop

I chuckled a bit to myself until I put my phone down and grabbed the script for today's episode.

"who were you talking to, you're blushing!" mads said and looked at me.
"uhm, no one" I said and laughed a bit.
"no, come on, tell me!" mads said and tried to grab my phone.
"no, i'm not talking to anyone" I said and tried to protect my phone. I finally gave up and handed her the phone because she didn't even know my password so how could she see anything.
"LILI, COLE SENT YOU A MESSAGE" mads said, fully shocked.
"AND IT SAYS I LOVE YOU BABY" mads practically screaming. I hid my face in my hands and felt extremely embarrassed and busted.
"Lili, why haven't you told me? You know I'll always support you, right?" Mads said.
"Oh and by the way I've always shipped you two" she said and looked at me with a smile.
"we've been dating, well kind of dating for like 9 years" i said.
"9 years? you knew each other before riverdale?" mads said shockingly.
"yeah, kind of" I said.
"wow, that's why you have such good chemistry" mads said.

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"lils" cole said and dragged me to the side.
"What's wrong?" I asked and looked around to see if anyone saw us.
"Do mads know about us?" Cole asked.
"She, may have had my phone when you texted me this morning" I said and looked down.
"Hey, it's okay" Cole said and lifted my head up.
"I love you" he said while cupping my cheeks and giving me a slow and passionate kiss on the lips.
"Damn, on screen and off screen?" Casey said and walked by.
"Wow, I feel like everyone is going to know by the end of the day" I said and laughed.
"Yeah haha" Cole said and laughed, he grabbed my hand and followed me to his trailer, because we had around an hour spare time until our next scene.
While inside, he picked me up and put me down on the couch. He then laid down next to me and pulled me closer to him.
"Up for a nap?" He asked and kissed my cheek.
"Always" i said and smiled.
Cole and I fell asleep really fast, but what we didn't know was that KJ had stormed into the trailer.
"Cole, its your scene now.... wait what?" KJ said shockingly and then later brought everyone into Cole's trailer to see us.
"Oh my gosh, are they really?" Ashleigh asked and stared at me and Cole, cuddled up.
"Guys, maybe they're just two friends, sleeping on a couch together" tiera said while everybody looked at her.
"Seriously?" Ross said.
"Okay, sorry" tiera said and put her hands up.

I finally woke up, but didn't open my eyes because I still wanted to feel the same loving feeling that Cole gave me. After a little while I decided to wake cole up, so I opened my eyes and jumped a little bit in shock. Basically everyone in the cast was there, circling us and just staring at us.
"What happened? Did you have a nightmare?... oh shit" Cole said and opened his eyes.
"I told you!" KJ said.
"When did this happen?" Mädchen said shockingly.
"Hey, at least they're cute" Madelaine said.
I sat up, hid my face in my hands and slowly released myself from Cole.
"We're busted, aren't we?" Cole said to me and sat up.
"Yeah" I said with a sad voice.
"Are you okay?" Cole asked and put his hand on my back.
"Can you give us a moment?" Cole asked everybody and they quickly walked out of his trailer.
"What's wrong babe?" Cole asked worryingly.
"I don't deserve you, Cole! I'm not the person you think I am" I said while feeling tears forming in my eyes.
"I'm a horrible person, you deserve someone better than me" I said, now fully crying.
"Stop, you are the one that I want, the one that is perfect for me and nothing you'll ever say will change that" Cole said and pulled me into a warm hug.
"Even tho it may look like I'm fine on the outside, doesn't mean that I am. I still see myself as the little girl who almost attempted suicide and who got bullied no matter what she did" I said.
"I hate myself, Cole and you deserve someone who is perfect" I said.
"No one's perfect, but you are perfect for me and I know that, I love you no matter what and you just have to start loving yourself because you are not still the bullied girl who almost commited suicide, you are a successfull and talented actress who is acting on one of the most watched teen shows. You're amazing, Lili and you have to know that" Cole said and pulled me even closer. I couldn't even talk after everything he said, I was speechless and I knew that everything he said was true but somehow I still couldn't believe it.