who are you? | sprousehart

i am gone

WARNING:
there's potential suicide in this chapter so don't read if you get easily triggered.

bella's pov

i was in the mood for chaos. cole sprouse was the perfect guy for me and i knew lili already was dating him, but she couldn't take him away from me. not a chance. my plan was to call the cw and act like a reporter and ask if i could interview the cast of riverdale on set. i called and tried to act professional, they told me that i could come over in a week.

time skip 1 week >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

lili's pov

for the first time in years, i have finally started to love myself. cole has really brought out the good in me and the fact that i can be with him all day long makes me even happier.
"good morning baby" cole whispered and kissed me softly on my forehead.
"good morning" i said and smiled.
"come on, we have to get up!" cole said and stood up from the bed.
"noooo, can we just stay here for a little longer" i said.
"come on sleepyhead" cole said and tried to drag me out of bed.
"no, i don't want to" i said and crawled back into bed.
cole picked me up bridal style and began peppering my face with kisses.
"it tickles" i said and laughed.

while at set, everything was pretty chill until roberto told us that we were going to have interviews. i had gotten used to having interviews so it wasn't a huge deal for me.
"lili, you're up first! she's in that room over there" roberto said.
i walked over to the room, opened the door and then quickly closed it afterwards. i turned around and jumped in shock, i could tell who the interviewer was just by seeing her face. it was bella, the bella. i tried to walk out of the room but she quickly walked over to the door and stopped me.
"listen to me, if you try to walk out of that door, i will do something really bad to your boyfriend" bella said with a bitchy look.
the same bitchy look she had when we were "friends". she took a step closer to me and grabbed my arm. she dug her nails into the skin on my arm until blood was running down. i didn't move nor say anything.
"sit down" she said, but i didn't move.
"SIT DOWN" she yelled and i quickly did as i was told.
"i see you're getting along with this cole sprouse. don't even bother anymore, because he's mine. so you stay the fûck away from him, okay?" she said, dead serious.
i could feel a single teardrop falling down my left cheek, but i quickly wiped it away with my shirt.
"why did you even continue living? i told you that you weren't good enough, why didn't you listen? no one likes you, not even cole. i will make sure he doesn't. because if you don't stay away from him i will hurt him, bad" bella said and looked straight into my eyes.
"that's all for today, you can go now, but make sure you're not going to cole because remember what i said" bella said and opened the door.
i quickly walked out of the room with tears falling down my whole face. it didn't help that cole was standing right outside the door. i ran, as fast as i could out of set. this was it. cole was everything i had and now i wouldn't have him either, so why would i live. he was the one life was worth living for and now he was gone. he would probably choose bella over me anyway, she was much prettier and she looked like a guy's biggest dream.
"lili, what's happening?!" cole yelled and tried to run towards me, but bella held him back.
"what are you doing? my girlfriend is crying, i need to help her" he said and now started to get really frustrated.
by that time i had already gotten the pills. the pills that i kept in my purse in case of emergency. the pills that i could take and it would all be over. but i knew that i had to calm myself first, so i took three deep breaths and then swallowed five pills, one by one.
"seriously stop" cole yelled and finally untangled himself from bella.
cole ran and looked everywhere for me, but i was nowhere to be found. he searched every little corner for me until he finally saw me lying next to jughead's locker in riverdale. i was holding a photo with him and me on it. he ran up to me and instantly realized what had happened. cole laid me down on his lap and quickly called 911.
"lili, baby, why did you do this?" cole whispered and played with my hair.
his face was covered in tears and he was holding the rest of the pills, which he had taken away from me.

the ambulance later arrived and drove me and cole to the hospital.

cole's pov

"lils" i whispered and grabbed her hand.
her heart had finally started beating again and i knew she was going to be okay, but the doctors told me to cheer her up and show her as much love as possible so she had a reason to wake up.
"i love you, please, don't ever do that again" i started.
"during all the years i've known you, i've always been there for you but what you don't know is that you've helped me through so much as well. i've had my own mental struggles but you've always been my rock and i need you to be alive. i can't ever be happy if you're not here. i need you and you need me. i love you so much, lili pauline reinhart" i said and wiped away the tears that were forming in my eyes.

slowly and carefully her eyes suddenly opened.

"cole, this wasn't supposed to happen, i was supposed to die" she said and panicked.

she tried to stand up from the hospital bed but i held her down.

"i know lils, i know" i said and felt one tiny little tear come down my face.

"but i came back for you, you're the only one i've got" lili said and grabbed my hand.