who are you? | sprousehart

i am happy sometimes

people had been speculating for years if me and cole were together, but we've never wanted to confirm it. our lives were very public, but the only thing we had in secret was our relationship. it felt good hiding it because when people get too invested in your private life everything will slowly start to fall apart.

the only thing that bothered me was that we couldn't do normal couple stuff in public like holding hands or sweet kisses on the cheek.

"cole" i shouted. "yeah" he said and came into the bedroom. "look" i said and showed him a picture that someone had taken of us in a restaurant. "gosh, people are crazy" cole said and sat down next to me on the bed. "i know, but it's hard you know, not holding your hand when we're out or not kissing you on a date" i said and looked down. "i want you to be my boyfriend, like for real, not just at home or at set" i said and took his hands. "i want you to be my boyfriend all the time" i said. he didn't reply so i instantly felt stupid. but then, he kissed me. we had kissed probably one hundred times before but they never felt like this. this kiss was filled with passion and love and it was perfect. i then broke it off. "cole, we need to make it official" i said. "i can't hide it anymore" i said and held his hand that was placed on my chin.

we decided to post pictures of each other on instagram, as we had only done it once or twice before. i picked a picture of me and cole in front of the eiffel tower, kissing. he picked a picture of me on his back, kissing his cheek. we decided to have a connected caption. on mine it said "sprouse" and on his it said "hart".

"fans will go crazy but i don't care" i said. "i know, me neither" he said and kissed my forehead. the pictures had been out for only an hour or two when i got a shocking call.

"c-cole" i stuttered. "yeah? what's wrong, baby?" he asked concerned and ran up to me. "my mom called" i started. "and she told me a lot of different reasons why i don't deserve you" i said. "and maybe she's right, i mean you can get who ever you want out there, you don't need me" i said as i was crying. he tried to grab my shoulder to calm me down but i pulled away. "no cole, i don't deserve you, you're the most perfect boyfriend ever and i'm just an annoying, ugly little girl" i said. "stop" he said. "you're the most wonderful and amazing girlfriend ever, i couldn't ask for a better girlfriend so don't ever say that again, because it's not true, okay?" he said and opened up for a hug. i accepted his hug and sobbed into his chest.

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we were laying down on my balcony, counting stars. every now and then he would kiss my head and i would blush like it was the first time he kissed me. "one" i said and pointed at a star. "two" he said and did the same. "three" i said. "four" he said. "you can't point to the same one as i did, that's called cheating cole sprouse" i said. "aw you're cute when you're annoyed" he said and kissed my head. i rolled over so i was on top of him. "i love you" i said. "like a lot" i said. "i love you too, baby" he said and smiled up at me. i leaned down to kiss him and he deepened the kiss quick. "cole" i said and pulled off. "madelaine is inside" i said. "come on, let's go to bed coley" i said and dragged him up.

as we walked over to my room i saw madelaine in the kitchen making a sandwich. "thanks for stopping with that stuff, i definitely did not want to hear that all night" she said and looked at us. we laughed and walked over to my room, hand in hand.

"i'm tired" i said and yawned. cole and i got undressed and i quickly pulled on his t-shirt that he had left on the floor. he looked at me with a huge grin. "what? it's comfy" i said and laid down in bed next to him. "you look cute in that shirt" he said and pulled on the hem of the shirt. "well, it belongs to my cute man" i said. "aw, you called me a man" he said and kissed my forehead. "no, i called you my man" i said.