What We Always Had- A Jily Fanfic

Chapter 9

Chapter 9- LILY POV

James was in stag form. He was laying on the ground. And he wasn't moving. A pool of blood was surrounding him. Remus was in human form, looking down at James with a look of pure disbelief. I wanted to shout something, and rush forward to James, but something held me back.

Instead I just looked away and tried not to let the others see my tears.

"Lily..." Peter says to me. "It's okay. He's gonna be okay. Just relax."

It was a bit hard to relax when your boyfriend is bleeding waaaay more than he should be. But I nod, take a deep breath, and say, "Yeah, he'll be fine... Probably..."

Of course, I didn't believe myself. And I'm pretty sure none of the others did either. But what we needed was comfort as Sirius whispered some things to him. I caught the words,

"James, wake up, Lily, hospital wing."

Did Sirius plan on carrying him to the hospital wing? Hopefully not while James was in stag form. Maybe that's why he was telling him to wake up. He wanted James to at least try to turn back.

But the stag stayed limp.

By now I was sobbing, and Peter and Sirius were tearing up a bit too. I watched Remus' expression turn from shock to sadness to anger to fury.

"Remus...?" I say to him.

"It's all my fault." He replies. "Because of me, James is now in a condition that none of us know of. All because I just had to turn today."

"Remus, no-"

"It's true!" Remus says, his voice rising with every word, "It wasn't even night. It wasn't even a full moon! But no, I turned, and now James is hurt!"

"But while you're in werewolf form, you aren't yourself! It's not-"

"The heck it isn't!"

"Remus, she's right." Sirius says calmly. "It isn't entirely your fault."

"It's still partially my fault!"

"Indeed, but not entirely. It is true that you have no control over when you turn. And it's true that you have no control over who you are when you do turn. Sure, you are the one who did this, yet you aren't. Understood?"

Remus huffs. "Fine."

"Now let's get James to the hospital wing." He picks James up and starts walking. Peter and I follow him. Remus stays behind.

Eventually we get him there. A trail of blood was left, but I used my wand to make it disappear. Hopefully I got it all.

I turn around to go inside the hospital wing. Peter was peeking out from behind the door. "Lily..." He mumbles.

"What?" I exclaim. "What is it?!"

"James..." He looks at the ground.

"NO! YOU ARE NOT SAYING WHAT I THINK YOU'RE SAYING!"

"I'm sorry." He walks towards me and puts a hand on my shoulder.

"NO! NOOOO! I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THIS!" I break away from his grasp and start to run away.

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I am a horrible person, I know. But I have no plans to kill James or Lily, so rest assured. Plus it wouldn't make sense anyway, because how would Harry be born?

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