I'm tired of you
Tired of the pain
Tired of the agony
Tired of the restless nights
Tired of the fear in my voice
I'm tired of you
Tired of being constantly scared
Tired of being afraid
Tired of being lost
Tired of being tired
I'm tired of you
I'm sick and tired of you controlling my life
I'm sick and tired of you breathing down my neck
I'm sick and tired of you holding me hostage
I'm sick and tired of you dictating how I'm touched
I'm tired of you
I just want to be
Hugged
Held
Kissed
Touched
And to not feel disgusting
To not feel fear
To not feel like I'm going to die
You've controlled me from behind bars
He has controlled me from behind the mask of an innocent school boy
So while I fight this urge to cut everyone from my life
So they don't have to deal with my trauma
I will put all my energy into fighting you
I will let him hold me
I will let her kiss me
I will let them take care of me
Because I trust them
Like I trusted you two
Like I trusted the situations
Like I trusted I'd be safe
But I wasnt
I never really was safe
I'm tired of hiding
I'm tired of worrying
I'm tired of panicking
I'll be stronger than you
I'll be stronger than both of you
Because I have them
Because they will help me
So, so long and goodnight
