Trapped in Leukemia

Chapter 4

Talia's P.o.v

Talia: Ali are you sure that you can see the board?

Ali: Yes for the last time. Why do you keep asking me?

Talia: Cause your squinting or what Honey Boo Boo says ' Bingo Face '.

She looked at me then raised her right brow

Ali: You still watch that?

Talia: Yea. So?

Ali: That show is old. I watch the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air.

Talia: That show came out like in the 80's. Your so.........boring.

Ali: Hold up. Ali Hazel Coleman is never boring. If I start being.........ugh, boring then the world is ending or I'm dying.

Talia: First part is the funny one. The dying one...........

Ali: Huh?

I didn't know what to say. Dying is a scary topic for me. That's why I enjoy every day of or the rest of my life.

Talia: Lets not talk about that anymore.

Ali: Talia if I hurt your feelings or said something wrong I'm sorry.

Talia: No its alright.

Ali: Okay. Just wondering.

*At Lunch*

Payton's P.o.v

Taylor: Pizza. My favorite.

Payton: Only if it made me have a flat stomach.

Taylor: Flat stomach? Girl your a stick.

Payton: I know. I got it from Teenager Post.

Taylor: Oh.Well along side from that. Scott Smith has a total crush you.

Payton: Yea right. No one would ever like me.

Taylor: Come on. Just cause Mariah bullied you doesn't mean a boy can't like you.

Payton: Yea,but after what happened last year....... your pretty much all I got.

I still remember every thing that happened last year. I was in the hospital for a week all, because of her.

{ Flashback }

" Hey. Everybody. I got something to tell y'all. "

I turn around looking at Mariah standing on one of the lunch tables.

" So guess who's diary I found? Payton Coleman's. I read it last and yo, there are a lot of embarrassing things in here. Let me read few. Everyday I love to look at my collection of my stuffed animals and Anime dolls everyday I get home from. I also love to play with all 32 of my American Girl Dolls in their doll house. My favorite show is Doc Mcstuffins and Elmo. I love to watch it when we have no school. My crush is Mason O'brian. Too bad he had to move to Bronx, New York cause of his grandparents. I loved him so much I just want to kiss and hug him every time I see him. Mason and Payton O'brian. I just love to say that."

" Who watches Elmo anymore. More like my 4 year old cousin. I'll read you guys one more. Thank god I have my stuffed flamingo Pinkie at night. I have no idea where I would be without her. She's so nice. She cleans up my tears every time I'm ' in a bad mood ' I love Pinkie so much. Payton your so stupid to leave your diary under the bleachers where you thought no one would find it and now that I've read it I know every little secret you have. Like how you cut yourself and would take to many pills so you could die and how you cry at night."

I got from my seat and ran out the cafeteria. I can't believe she did that in front of everyone. I hate my life, I hate myself, I hate everything about me. My brown making me look like a dirty dog and being tall making everyone call me green giant. A tear rolled down my cheek. Everything is just messed up. Sister having cancer, me getting bullied, me cutting myself. I have no idea who I am anymore. I used to be the sweet girl who would never give anyone any trouble to an emo freak. I opened the door to my house and went upstairs to my room. I slid to the floor and grabbed the box from under my bed full of pictures of my family. Looking at all the photos made some of the memories make me cry a little. I grabbed the razor from the bottom of the box. I didn't care anymore. I just wanted to be gone and forever. I didn't stop cutting, I didn't want to stop cutting, I didn't want to be here, I just wanted to die. I  put the blade then looked around. After a few seconds my vision started to blur out then it went black.

{End of Flashback}

Taylor: Pay come on. I know about last year and none of that stuff is true anyway. If Scott likes you ,he likes you. Yes he is the most popular guy in school, but still. He's hot. Take a chance. You only live once.

Payton: I'll think about it...................answers no.

Taylor: Come on.

Payton: Taylor the answers no. I have other stuff to think about.

Taylor: Like what?

Payton: Grades, gymnastics, school work. Also, Ali I don't want to abandon her, because of some boy. You should be thinking about Talia. You know with her leukemia and stuff. Also, you need to comfort her. She scared you know.

Taylor: Scared of what ?

Payton: Dying. She wants to live the rest of her life the best she can. That's why you need to break up with Jake and and focuse on her.

Taylor's P.o.v

Has she lost her mind.

Taylor: I am not breaking up with Jake cause of my sister. That's stupid.

Payton: Taylor I can't believe you. Your sister is way more important. Jake can love you today and dump you the next. Your so brutal.

She turned around and started walking off.

Taylor: What does that mean ?

Payton: It means cruel. You would know that if you weren't to busy chating with Jake in English then paying attention to the lessons.

She walked out the cafeteria leaving me standing there. What did I do ?

4th chapter is done. Was going to post it yesterday, but I was to busy watching fireworks and drinking a nerd slush. Now this is what I need. Feedback. I need feedback, because its kind of hard writing a chapter without anyone encouraging you to do so. So that's all I need. Not forcing just need some feedback. Also I need 2 more characters for another book that are girls, so just tell me about yourself and what you look like ( hair, height, eyes, etc. I think you know what I mean.) 1 girl will play one of the main characters friends and the other one will be the mean girl. That's all.

- Blonde Rasta

P.S. I'm not really a blonde. I have brown hair, but I love to say that.