If you were to ask me how to describe my first week in Arus in just one word, I wouldn't be able to. So much has happened. A lot of it bad, but also a lot of it good. I've made friends here already, and I feel like I'm developing strong bonds with them. But after what happened with Lance and I. . .I really hope he keeps his word.
And then, Lotor and I, well—I mean, by this point it should be obvious how I feel. But I still feel guilty because I know this is wrong. I know that I should tell William about this, but I know that would absolutely crush him. But it needs to be done. The question remains. . .when?
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After you had left Allura's yard, with Lotor by your side, you pulled out your key from your pocket and began making your way over to the back door of your house. However, before you were able to insert the key into the slot, Lotor grabbed your hand from behind. You turned your head over your shoulder and gazed upon the guy with a perplexed stare.
"What?" You asked, quietly for some reason.
"I wanted to show you something." He said and gave your hand a gentle squeeze. You knew you had blushed, and you timidly tried to hide away your face. But, by now, what was the point?
"I d-don't know. My mother doesn't want me out in town by myself right now." You say as you retract your hand from his.
"You won't be by yourself. I'm right here." Lotor says, trying to counteract your statement.
"You know what I mean. She wants to know where I am so that she doesn't have to worry—maybe another time?" You suggested but he seemed like he wasn't having it. You knew that he was going to try and change your mind, but you were quick and opened your mouth to speak first.
"I can't be out. My parents know about everything that's happened. Maybe when things calm down then. . ." But you had nothing left to say. You didn't know if this would ever end. You hitched your speaking, Lotor had noticed—he always does, and began to speak his mind.
"That's the thing. Things have calmed down." What?! What did he mean? Things have calmed down in only a matter of a few days? That can't be. It can't be right. It doesn't sound right so. . .it can't be! Your mind was boggled, for obvious reasons.
"That—what do you mean? How? It's only been a couple of days." You stated the obvious, and showcased how oblivious you were to him.
"Ever since that run in you had with Sendak, nothing else has been coming from my father or his gang." Lotor explained to you. At the same time he looked as if he were in deep thought.
"Thats great!" You say, then you noticed the distant look on his face.
"No, it's not. He's gotten quiet. I thought he was starting to develop a pattern but now I don't know what he's up too." Putting it in that perspective had changed your mind. You didn't think of it like that. This made you anxious.
For like the hundredth time since you've moved here.
"I. . .I didn't think of it like that." You say, but a sudden thought had came to your head.
"Then why do you want me to come with you?" You had strung a few things together, and some of the things he said just. . .wasn't lining up.
"I've already told you, I'm here." He was quick to answer your question. Of course, the context of his answer was sweet, but the way that he was so ready to answer, threw you a bit off.
"Lotor. . .I know. But I don't want to disobey my mom." You say timidly as you felt him tower over you. He had gotten significantly closer to you during this whole conversation, but you hadn't noticed until now.
