Broken

Screaming,crying,heart break

When i got home your dad wasn't there i take a sigh of relief and it hurt really bad to even do that I go in my room and lay down and fall asleep I had a really bad dream and I woke up sweating but I couldn't move my body I was numb then it stops I sit up and go to get some water then the door opens and it's my dad I try to run to my room but fall because I'm to weak my dad comes over to me
Dad:"are you okay"
He sees my face
Dad:"what the hell happened to you!"
A tear falls from my eye onto my cheek
Me:"you don't remember do you"
Dad:"no"
Me:"you did this to me last night"
He starts to tear up
Dad:"y/n I'm so so sorry"
He helps me up and takes me to my room and I sit on my bed and cry because I know that he'll do this again even if he isn't drunk because he has these random blackouts and then he doesn't remember anything he done and he might get drunk to forget he done this to me but then he'll do it again so I pack a bag with some clothes in it and I put on my shoes and I go to Emilio and Ivan's house when I get there Ivan opens the door
Ivan:"what do you want"
Me:"c-can I stay here for the n-night p-pl-please"
Ivan:"Emilio!"
He leaves the door and Emilio comes to the door
Emilio:"Ivan told me you want to stay the night?"
Me:"yeah"
Emilio:"come in"
I do and he shows me the room I can stay in I put my bag down and go downstairs to get some water when I see the Dolan twins sitting on the couch with Ivan I walk downstairs and into the kitchen and get some water but the ice Made to much noise and the Dolan twins notice I'm here
Ethen comes up to me and I turn around and look at him
Ethen:"damn it looks like you finally got what you deserve"
I start crying
Ivan:"I know right she literally looks like death hit her" he says laughing and coming into the kitchen I look up at him with tears in my eyes and he's eyes looked sad after I looked at him Grayson then comes into the kitchen
Grayson:"damn y'all were right"
I cry even more and I look up at them and take all my strength to say this
Me:"what did I ever do to deserve this please just tell me!"
They looked shocked that I said that I look at Ivan
Me:"and you Ivan you were the first person that was there for me in a long time and ever since then you've just treated me like I'm a piece of trash that doesn't even deserve to go in the trash can"
He looks down at the floor
Me:"Ivan do you want me to kill myself?"
Ivan:"no"
He says as he looks at me in my eyes and a tear falls from his eyes onto his cheeks
Me:"then why do you hate me so much"
Ivan doesn't say anything he just goes upstairs to his room