{my best mistake} (ONE)

Hospital Visit's

I wake up in a white room, and my head instantly hurts. I don't know what happened. My eyes hurt. A nurse comes in and explains what happened.

I was asleep and I hit my head on a night table. I was bleeding when my mom found me and took me to the hospital. I exhale.

She says I need to stay for a little while, but that someone wanted to see me.

Duke walks in, his eyes red and tear stains down his cheeks. My heart melts, and for that moment I forgot everything that happened. I was just glad my best friend was here with me.

He hugged me, leaning over the bed.

He sobbed, "Julia.."

I hug back tightly, almost crying myself.

"Julia I love you so so much I'm do glad you're alright oh my god..oh my god.."

He lets go and sits in a nearby chair and puts his hands together.

"Julia.."

"Yes?"

"If it hurts you so much..then I can break up with Rose.."

"No! I-..don't do that. Duke I'm just gonna have to get over it. I can do it..I promise." I look him in the eyes.
He sighs. "Okay."

I knew damn well nothing was okay.

For the next few days I got visits from Rose, Duke, my mom. Sometimes all three would show up with Starbucks for me. I liked those days. I liked it when the nurse came in and smiled at me. I liked when I could go and get food by myself. I liked when I didn't get headaches.

After a few days, I was able to go back to school again. I didn't want to, because then I'd see them. I'd see them kissing and hugging and being all lovey dovey again and I didnt know if I could take it.

For the first week, I took it. It was fine. I tuned it out when I needed too. I ignored, and ignored, and forgot and suppressed until I didn't care anymore.