i was speechless. i couldn't find the words to give ethan after he said that. and i wasn't gonna say it back because i didn't know if i did or not.
no playing games Macon.
but i knew what i had to do. be the bigger person, and tell ethan i didn't feel the way he did, or at least i didn't think so.
"you don't have to say anything back." ethan blurts from the drivers seat, disrupting my thoughts, "i don't know what came over me but i felt like i had to say it." he continues.
i just looked at him. literally no words at all.
"i can take you home if you want." he offers
"no. please no." i object, breaking my silence. i was not going home.
ethan sighs, "then fucking talk to me Mac. please." he lifts a hand off the steering wheel and brings it to his eyes, "please."
"ethan..." i trail off, not knowing what to say, "i don't know." i sigh and jerk my head back so it hits the leather head rest.
"just tell me how you feel Mac. i'm not playing games." he seemed frustrated, but i understood. i didn't wanna play any games either.
"i don't know how i feel ethan." i sighed, "being around you is always the best time of my life, but i thought you just wanted to fuck...and now..you're telling me you love me?", i scoff, "this is fucking crazy E."
i look over at him, his hazel eyes falling onto mine, he looked disappointed, his naturally happy demeanor disappearing.
it took him a second to say anything back, but when he did, his words caught me by surprise, "maybe we should just stop." he states, "whatever this is."
i swear at that moment my heart literally sank into my stomach. he tells me he loves me and now he wants to end what we do have? i'm confused.
i shake my head, furrowing my eyebrows, "are you serious, ethan?" this was fucking ridiculous. he did not get to do this.
he shoots me a look, "deadass Macon."
i purse my lips together, "take me home then please."
20 minutes later we arrived at my house, i was dreading seeing my mom after what happened last night, but seeing her was better than facing the most awkward of situations with ethan. i grabbed my bag of the clothes i had slept over in, and made a clear attempt to slam ethan's car door as i climbed out.
and he didn't say another word or make any effort like i hoped he would as he watched me walk up the path to my front door. he usually watched to make sure i made it safely inside, but this time he just sped off, not taking a second glance in my direction. my car was still at his house. and my phone. fuck it. i'll just walk and get my shit from grayson.
i waited until i knew ethan was gone and not coming back, and i gotta admit, it broke my heart a little bit. ethan's house was a good 7 blocks away from mine, it was gonna take me at least 15 minutes to get there. it wasn't cold or anything, so that was a plus.
arriving at ethan's house, i spotted my car in his driveway right how i left it. i walked up his long stone pathway, kicking a few rocks. i knew his parents weren't home so i walked right in. i didn't really care either. i walked in, my footsteps echoing throughout the entire place, making my presence known.
"what the fuck are you doing here?" a voice said from behind me, it wasn't ethans, it was too deep.
"i came to get my stuff grayson." i say as i turn around,"my phone and car keys are upstairs in ethan's room. can you go get them for me? i don't wanna bother him." the last thing i wanted to do was ask grayson for a favor, but i really wasn't down to talk to or even see ethan.
"what do i get in return?" grayson asked, crossing his arms with a smug smile plastered across his menacing face.
it was kinda hot.
"to be on my good side." i state, "now please go." i nearly beg as i point to the staircase.
"fine." grayson sighed, "you're welcome Kane."
i watched grayson walk up the stairs and through ethan's bedroom door, and at that same exact moment, ethan walked right through the front door, his eyes landing on me immediately.
"why are you here?" he snaps, shooting me a glare as he closes the door behind him.
"grayson is getting my stuff for me. i didn't know whether or not you were here so i had him go up to your room for me." i explained, tugging a piece of hair behind my ear.
he nods, walking up stairs and into his room as well. i heard the sound of muffled voices-more like yells. i wanted to go up there and see what was happening but grayson came back down before i could make up my mind.
"do yourself a favor and stay as far as possible away from ethan as you can." grayson said, placing my phone and keys in my hands.
"you don't have to tell me twice." i laugh. i walk over to the door and open it. before i walk out i look back to grayson, "thank you..by the way" i smile, closing the door before he could say anything.
what a day.
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i'll get around to introducing her family and friends:)
