That Summer Fling

Chapter 4: Thoughts and Memories

I made up an excuse to go check on Scarlett.

I just didn't know what to say. Here was the boy, the lover a the Father of my baby girl stoo infront of me. Yet, I didn't have one thing to say to him. It was all so confusing. My emotions, my feeling, my daughter.. our daughter. How I could reply to his statement I didn't know. He admitted his love for me, for me. But he left me. With that, so had my feelings. I did feel anything like that towards him anymore. I really liked him, it had been a summer fling. I thought we would stay in contact. However, we just didn't and pregnancy took over.

I sat back in the rocking chair and looked over at my little girl. She's so beautiful and I'm so lucky. Sam, does deserve to know her. She deserves to know him. But liking him in that way again. I'm just not sure. Will I ever get those butterflies in my stomache I got just before we went out at night? I don't know. But for him, I could at least try.

 I sighed, I would try. For Scarlett I would try to make ammends and for Jack I would let him see his little girl. Custody wise if he decided to threatened, he would leave. If he tries to to take my child he's gone. My daughter will stay with me.

I stood up and quietly made my way across the room, gently closing the door behind me. Slowly I began to descend down the stairs and made my way into the living room. Jack looked up at me, as if waiting for a response to what he had said five minutes ago.

"I don't know how I feel. You turn up after two years and I don't have an answer, for which I am truly sorry. As for Scarlett, yes you can see her, stay in touch with her and get to know her. At the moment we can't be a family and I think you already know why. If a relationship ccomes it comes. But the only reason I'm doing this is not for you. But for my daughter. So when she goes to school and they have to draw pictures of they'e relatives. She wont just have a Mommy and Grandparents to draw. But a Father too. I hope you accept that. But if you try take my baby away from me. Your gone, that's it. No second chances. You understand?"

I looked up at him. A single tear made it's way down his face. 

"I Understand, this is my number." He reached out his hand. Enclosed was a small strip of paper. I took it from him. "Ring me when I'm next allowed to see her. I'm free all week apart from Thursday when I have Uni. Thankyou for having me, I'll see myself out don't worry." 

He stood up and made his way to the front door. He put his hand on the knob and turned round. "Tell our Daughter I love her." And he walked out the door soflty closing it behind him.