Fields of heaven

Chapter 1:

I done it. I slid it through. Blood rushed through my purple veins out my pale skin; I wiped it on my black ripped jeans, as I stood. I looked out, no sign of Xavier. Blobs of mascara poured down my face. I was waiting for Xavier's call, my ex that recently dumped me, because apparently 'I was too depressed'. Sick lying bastard, I still care about him but I just don't say a thing. It must be at least over 7 hours, no sign of him. I was worried and anxious. So many questions flew through my brain like a never-ending hurricane. Why did he want to call me all of a sudden? Where is he? Why am I so anxious? Do I still love him after what he's done?

"Leanna!" Mum called. "Coming." I whispered. Really I couldn't be asked to explain to her, why I've got black stains left from my mascara on my face. But still no sign of Xavier. As I crept down, mum was laying on the couch, watching 'Who wants to be a millionaire'. That show was so shit, no one was winning absolute anything, in the few hours! "What on earth have you got on your face?" Mum asked popping on her Gucci flip flops, as she stood. "Just felt a bit down, I guess." Pulling my sleeve down, not showing my cut, then looking over to the floor. There was a awkward moment of silence, which went on for too long. "Honey, what happened?" Mum asked, breaking the silence and stroking my dark dyed hair. "Its nothing mum, really" As I gently removed her hand from my hair.

"There must be something, you're never like this," Mum sounded agitated. "Well maybe I'm too depressed right?!" I said sarcastically, Xavier's words in my mind. "No no, your not depressed; when I look at you, i see a beautiful, independent lady!" Mum exclaimed, leaning over for a hug. It felt good, a warm cuddle: I never wanted to let go. Mum knew how to show my soft side. "Thanks mum, I needed that!" Smiling so wide, my skin hurt. "Its alright honey, anytime" Mum stared at me anxiously, wanting to know what had happened. "Well..its Xavier, we broke up because I was too depressed." I broke down, tears ran down my face like a waterfall. Mum gave me another tight, giving hug while stroking my back. "It'll be ok honey, don't cry" Mum explained sounding more concerned than usual.

#Hiii!! First fan-fic, not too sure if its good! Thanks for reading, means so much! Love you all Xx