Confusion(Camren)

Chapter 21

Going to get ready ended up with me and Camila watching a film considering the dinner plans weren't until that night,

"Lo"i heard her laugh I turned to her "yeah?"i asked "are you okay?"she asked concerned I nodded "it's just still weird"i told her and she looked down "Camila you know in the old life you were the biggest bully"i laughed but her head shot up,

She frowned "what?"she asked "I thought it was mani and Dinah?" she asked "yeah but you were like their leader sort of"i explained,

"What did I do to you?"she asked me frowning "you wouldn't go a day without calling me a faggot or a dyke shoving me into lockers knocking my books out of my hand calling me all sorts of slapping me"i told her she looked away then back up to me,

"You know I wouldn't hurt you like that now don't you mentally or physically?"she mumbled looking at her hands "I hope not" I told her and she snapped her head back up,"you think that I'd hurt you?"she asked sounding pissed,

"At least now I know in this life you still have a short temper"i mumbled "what's that supposed to mean"she frowned I laughed,

"It's mean that in this life and that life your still the same camila" I shouted back to her she frowned her eyes welling up "I would do anything for you to remember us this isn't you lauren!"she shouted back,

"This is me" I raised my voice "and you'll have to get used to it or"i stopped my self she let her tears come out of her eyes,

"Or what?"she asked "you'll have to get used to it or leave"i told her "are you seriously doing this"she asked,

I looked away "I'm not going anywhere"she told me "I don't want you to you just need to get it into your head that this is me"i raised my voice slightly

"I'm trying"she told me her voice cracking this is killing me I hate it, It's just telling her about her bullying me brought it all back she used to make my life hell.

"I'm sorry"i said to her "I'm sorry too"she whispered, just as we heard a knock, I looked at Camila who frowned I went to the door to open it too...

Luke? "what are you doing here"i asked in disgust he looked super confused "hey luke"i heard Camila say behind me "hey mila" he walked past me hugging her I stood there not believing my eyes.

"What the actual fuck?"i hissed they both looked at me confused "he's one of out bestfriends"camila told me looking from me to Luke

"Well In that other life he was your stuck up homophobic boyfriend"i glared at him "maybe you should go luke"camila mumbled

"Lauren me and mila are just friends yeah we used to date and that other time but we are all friends now"he explained and Camilas eyes went wide,

"What are you own about?"i snapped "get out Luke"camila huffed "unless you forgot she lost her memory and I have to explain all that shit again get out"camila snapped.

"Sorry"he mumble leaving as soon as the door shut I faced Camila "what shit?" I asked frownin.

"Back before my parents kicked me out me and you broke up for a few months and I dated luke then we got back together"she told me "what's bad about that?"i asked she shrugged,

"what's that other time he was talking about?"i asked confused "uh well when we got back together I, we had a huge fight over me staying friends with Luke you were so mad you wouldn't answer my calls so I got really upset and went to his"she explained,

I looked at her to carry on "and I cheated on you"she mumbled my eyes went wide as she looked to the floor I felt my heart break what the fuck I walked into the kitchen and sat down at the table,

A few moments later I heard Camila sit infront of me she tried to grab my hand but I snatched it away glaring at her,

"Lo please you forgave me this was last year" she told me quietly "unless you haven't notice Camila I lost my fucking memory"i snapped "fuck you actually are the same Camila"i shouted

She frowned at me "what do you mean"she asked "the short tempered bullying rich kid slut"i shouted sort of regretting the last part her eyes went wide.

"I'm trying to fucking help you lauren I love you so much but I'm not you fucking punch bag!"she screamed back,

"Yes you lost your memory but I haven't that was in the bloody past you forgave me we moved on!"she shouted I walked over to my bag searching threw it,

"What are you doing?"she asked me quietly whilst I pulled out my cigarettes her eyes went wide,

"Are you fucking kidding me"she shouted I lit the cigarette up and took a drag blowing the air out sighing.

"You promised me you stop"she shouted her voice cracking "I can't remember that"i told her taking another drag,

"We'll let me inform you of the reason smoking gives you cancer"she told me I looked her she was full on crying "sofi died of cancer when she was 9" she cried

"Who's sofi?"i asked regretful "my little sister"she shouted "she looked up to you so much you asshole"she scream I went to hug her but she backed up

"No don't Lauren"she warned "where are you going?"i asked her "to bed have fun sleeping on the couch and unless you haven't notice dinners cancelled"she shouted,

"Camz"i tried "oh and Lauren happy anniversary"she mumbled wiping her tears and making her way up stairs

Shit!,iv really fucked up.