S.L.U.T

Pride🤸🏾‍♀️🛑

         What are you looking at?? Can I help you with something!!??

Taron: Why, did you allow him too do that too you??

Me: I really ain't have the choice in the matter !! Why did it even matter too you!!

Taron: it doesn't i just I feel like you know your worth!!

Me: I do but we have history an as much as I want too thru it away!! I can't

(Seriously I've tried but it always end up badly for me when I try too) I think too my self

Taron: hmph, it seems like I'm bothern you I could always leave!!

I wipe my lips off, because I could taste the blood running from my top lip into my mouth!!

Me: your not bothern me it just seems like you care that's all !! How do you know Monroe an his Goons anyway??

Taron: it's a long story, but he's a business partner of mine that's all!!

Me:  hmph so you one of them, I figured that .

I reach for my keys off the ground an I unlock my car door !!

Me: well it was nice meeting you!!

Taron: I'm upset a little that are conversation has too get cut short, but I would love too see you again!!

Me:  that's funny you want too see me again but you didn't even act like u liked my lap dance I gave u damn near a hour ago!!

Taron: look don't get me wrong I loved it but I'm a emotionless person !! Honestly so don't take it too the heart Kiddo !! And by the way I'm Taron 😉 can I have your name in return !!??

Me: it's Hope, but everyone calls me Dianna

I can see the innocent light leave his eyes an be replaced with a cold stare that gave me chills !! Something about him change i couldn't quite put my finger on it!!

Taron: you have a very lovely name enjoy the rest of your night!!

Me: so your not going to ask me for my number or anything!!

Taron: I didn't know I was suppose too!!

Me: whatever your a ass whole !!

I turnt in got in my car an started the engine!!
I watched him watch me thru my rear view mirror !! I put my car in drive an sped off .. I watched him thru the rear view in till he was out of view !!

Jesus like what is wrong with that Guy, he comes up to me acting all concern an then switch up on me !! 😣 All of sudden he wants too speak to me out of all the times ive seen him he's never said a word to me in till now !!
I can't say that he wasn't fine or that I wasn't attracted to him because I was I just ugh, ima fry my brain thinking to hard !!

15mins later I'm pulling up too my apartment complex !! It's seriously time for me too fine a new space for me and Carter because this one bedroom is not cutting it  too think that I was Jobless for 6months and my last resort was too make a living stripping I never wanted too go too that but I was at the point in my life where I had no choice .. Monroe was a dead beat he only was there for me an Carter when he needed something in return!! I mean we use too be happy we even planned Carter I don't know what happen after that !! It's all a blur it's a road I don't want too go back down .. but once you in this Game it's no turning around specially when my Baby father is Monroe Dior  🚮😣 !! I sat in my car getting ready too have a flash back but I realize how late it is an that I need to get in the house an get some rest before I have too deal with my 1year old !!

I got out my car an walked to my Trunk an opened it an grabbed the black trash bag .. I locked up my car an headed too my apartment on the 2nd floor !!

I open my door &  see my cousin Peaches laying on my couch sleep , I would wake her up but I don't have time too hear her mouth about what happen too my face.. speaking of, I might need too go get checked out I think this nigga may have fractured my rib!! I grab a pack of peas an some ice an walk to my bed room !!

I set the money on my bed & went into the bathroom an the face I was looking at I couldnt recognize.. I shut the bathroom door an slide down the wall to the floor an burst out in tears !! I didn't deserve this my face is hideous I'm not going to be able too show up at work like this not in till this black eye go away an my lip heal. I grabbed the razor off the Tub an started cutting away at my wrist I wanted too take my life right there but my son's face kept flashing into view !! I had too live for him I had too grind for him..

I stood up an grabbed the first aid kit too tend too my scars an bruise's!! I took my clothes off an stepped in the shower I let the  hot water caress my body.. I set there rocking back an forth for at least 20mins before washing my self down with some lavender caress body wash !!🚺

I cut the water off and stepped out an put the towel around me  I went in my room an shut the door !! I set in my bed for a minute, I then lotion my self down an put on my  Tommy boxers an Sports bra ... I dumped the money on too my bed an grabbed my machine that counts my money an a couple of rubber bands !!

I started grabbing money an stacking it in the machine so it could count it. Every time it reached 50 I would put a rubber band around it ..... Took me about 30mins too count it all !! Surprisingly I made about 1200 that'd good cause I usually just make 600 giving out regular lap dances .. I could get use to this I laughed too my self !! The only thang that makes me mad tho is that other bag probably had the same amount or probably more 😏😑 !! I shook my head at the thought, I unlocked my closet door an grabbed my stool so I can put my money on top of the shelf where the other 10grand was !!   I  stacked the money in the closet and locked my door back !!

I missed my son like hell, it's alot easier too sleep when he's with me!! I grabbed my phone an scroll thru my gallery all the pictures were of mostly him his smile was everything too me .. I remember I had to send a message too his Grandma , I shot her a text an let her know I couldn't make it an too bring him on her way too work!!

I put my phone on the charger an passed out in my bed !!