ozone 》TWICE

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KIM DAHYUN'S P.O.V.
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Tensions are high in the dorm to put things simply.

And simplicity doesn't come easy when you find out that one of the people you've put the most trust in lied to you. 

I'm in denial, in a way, but it was only to be expected. Jihyo always seemed guilty. I had absolutely no clue when it came to what she could have been guilty over, but I suppose now I know enough. Probably more than I should know.

And it's natural for the atmosphere to change with Jeongyeon threatening to burst any second. I'm not sure if anyone else caught on, but it became so painfully obvious that Jeongyeon had fallen in love with Jihyo. Or maybe she was just in the midst of it. She looks at Jihyo like...

Kind of like how I look at Sana and Momo. But I won't focus on that because I'm too broken to allow myself happiness.

Jihyo hasn't come home for a couple of weeks now, and Jackson continuously tries to inform us that she's resting, but it seems off. I only know bits and pieces of what happened, like how Jeongyeon got riled up due to Jinyoung mistreating Jihyo. And I know that she tried attacking him. All that's left is the fact that they discovered that Jihyo was a Zodiac.

And we know that Nayeon knew before we did. I'm not angry with either of them, honest. But the fact that Jihyo lied to us isn't comforting. To me, it means that she'd probably lie again even though I don't want to believe that. Whether or not she was made to lie, I'll never know. All I can do is hope she'll recover quickly because that's what she did with us.

I also hope that Jeongyeon will forgive her somehow. But I doubt that that will happen. In a way, I relate to Jeongyeon. I find it easier to build walls around myself rather than letting people in because if I do that, I'm safe. And Jeongyeon does the same thing as I do.

Momo is taking it as well as expected. She's not mad at Jihyo, but she's not happy with her either. She's irritated because Jeongyeon is though, and she's upset because Jihyo lied to Jeongyeon. Momo couldn't really care less about herself when it comes to the people she loves, and I love her for that. I want to be like Momo.

Sana is noticeably more antsy. Whether it be because of Jihyo or Jeongyeon or even the fact that she's the last of us to mature, and she has no clue when it will happen, well, I'll never know. Sana is close with Jihyo, too, though it isn't as noticeable as Nayeon and Jihyo. Sana looked up to Jihyo in a way that's indescribable. 

Chaeyoung always had a guess. It's obvious that she did, even as Jeongyeon came home with handcuffs tight around her wrists, tears streaming down her red face, Chaeyoung knew before she told us. Chaeyoung and Jihyo shared this bond that was different from anyone else. They understood each other, and Chaeyoung viewed Jihyo as a motherly figure. Tzuyu is a naive girl. She had no clue, and I know that she confided in Jihyo. She's clearly hurt. Mina doesn't know what to feel.

As we try getting more comfortable with ourselves, Mina breaks. And she cries, wrapping her arms around herself because she doesn't know what to do. I drop myself from the air immediately, and I'm not sure what I'm doing until I'm pulling Mina into my arms like Sana and Momo do. Mina is a mix between Tzuyu and Chaeyoung. She had no clue about Jihyo, and she viewed her as a role model in a way.

And I suppose I did, too. Because Jihyo was constantly there for us no matter what happened in the early hours or late hours that she had to help Jinyoung at JYPE, she was there for us. And when we matured, she took care of us until we were well on our feet. Jihyo always reassured us that everything would be fine. But was that a lie as well?

It can't be. Jihyo protected Jeongyeon from Jinyoung, so why would she hurt us? Jihyo understands us.

Finally, a weight on my shoulders feels lifted. Jihyo understands what it's like to be a Zodiac, and she understands the struggles. She could have been taken away when she was young, but how would I ever know? All that makes sense right now is that I'm not angry with Jihyo, and I still care deeply about her just like she does us.

It's in Jihyo's nature to forgive, and I know that she'll forgive Jeongyeon. She'd do the same if she were in Jeongyeon's place, and so would I. If I discovered that Sana or Momo were lying to me, I'd be upset. Because I trust them. I pour myself out to them constantly when I'm too weak to even think.

Momo provides her arms, wrapping them around me, kissing my face, and whispering reassuring words into my ear. And her words make me feel like I'll be alright, but I realize that there's something different than when I'm with Sana.

Sana provides her bed, and her beautiful voice. Her bed always smells just like her: vanilla and home. I shouldn't allow myself to trust her, but there's something in the way she looks at me, like she's afraid to lose me. I don't deserve her at all, but if I make her happy, then I think I could stay.