ozone 》TWICE

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KIM DAHYUN'S P.O.V.
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"What do you think the sun feels like?" Mina asks, interrupting the eerie silence. I hum softly, my eyes still closed. Mina's hand feels soft in mine as I reply.

"You've touched Sana before." She laughs.

"Apparently Jihyo came back to the dorm yesterday," Mina tells me after her laughter dies down. I open my eyes slowly, focusing on the side of her face. She resembles a Greek goddess, one I shouldn't try and touch. She may crumble apart, I believe. Or it could be the opposite. Definitely the opposite. "Nayeon told me that she was trying to get them out." I don't have to ask to know who she's talking about. Relief fills my chest as Sana comes to mind. She's the first, followed by the other two. I smile.

"Do you think she's trying to fix things?"

"I think she's trying to prove to us that she deserves our forgiveness. I'm not afraid to give it to her, but it hurt. Jihyo has always been hard to read, so I believe that's one of the reasons I could relate to her. She didn't fear me when I matured, too, so I genuinely believe she is a good person. Even if she lied, she's trying to mend things with us. Do you have faith in her?" Mina turns her head, and I nearly lose myself in her eyes. Falling for Mina was never my intention, but practicing with her for so long had made my brain into complete mush. I am selfish to put it simply.

"I have faith in God," I say. Mina's eyebrows furrow. "Jihyo is an angel sent down to Earth I believe, so I have faith in her as well."

"You're confident in that belief."

"Of course I am," I breathe in the air around me slowly, admiring the stretch I feel in my lungs, "my parents told me that God would send me one. And Jihyo is... I don't know. She's sure not a demon contrary to Jeongyeon's belief."

"Jeongyeon doesn't hate Jihyo." Mina mentions. I bring my lips between my teeth. I won't argue because it isn't my place. It's Jeongyeon and Jihyo's battle, not mine. And I'd definitely rather not pick sides. 

Mina is deep. Deeper than I had originally thought she'd be. Her mind is vivid with imagination and scenarios that I've never even once thought of. It's dark though. It's a messy storm, one that threatens to brew over and cause a complete disaster of anything and anyone around her. Mina is someone I'm not afraid to trust.

I love Sana. I love her as much as I possibly can, and then some more. Being in love is an understatement when it comes to how I believe I feel about her. When I first arrived at JYPE, I was skeptical, of course. Who wouldn't be? But I was okay with her at first. After I began to build walls around myself, I thought it would help prevent anyone from getting close to me. That didn't stop much however.

I was closest to the two youngest, having shared a room with them. And I was used to Momo for some reason I can't understand. She was comforting, and she still is, but most of it is focused on Mina now. I'm not angry at all though. Mina needs it more than I do.

Sana pushed. She pushed enough to where I would leave my comfort zone, but never too much. I admire her the most. Sana is someone I can't describe to an ordinary person. I would only simply be able to compare her to the sun because she's made my life so much brighter than I ever thought it could be.

I'm confused when it comes to Momo. She's unique, and she's strong, and she's always there when I need her. I've cried countless of times in her arms, and I can't count how many times I've just talked to her to settle my nerves. I still feel nervous about a lot of things, but when I think about Momo, it's not so bad.

I'm not sure how our dynamic will work, or if I even truly want it to, but if it would make them happy, I'd do it in a heartbeat.

"I'm going to go see the sun." I tell Mina. She brushes my cheek with her fingers, a glint in her eye. It fades away as quickly as it comes, and I almost frown.

"Tell her I said hi."

I want Mina to come with me. I want all three of us, all four of us, to sit down and talk, but that's hard when one of you is locked away. But I won't force her. 

Jackson trusts me, I think, because he simply allows me to go without any security this time. I feel more comfortable without a woman or man staring me down constantly when I try to talk to my girlfriend. I smile despite my twisting stomach. The term feels nice to say and think about despite seemingly being temporary. Marrying Sana wouldn't be terrible. No, it would be absolutely lovely. But it hasn't been long since we confessed, and I shouldn't be thinking of marrying her.

I knock on the heavy door before sliding the window open. It takes a few seconds before my eyes adjust to the dark room of her cell. She turns to me as she finishes sliding down her shirt, a small smile in place on her lips. I adore the way her eyes soften despite her hidden emotions. They're easy to see with how she carries herself towards me, "Dahyunnie." 

"Sana," I respond, taking in her features. I want to reach out and touch her face, but I can't, and it's slowly driving me mad. I miss her in more ways than one, "hi."

"Hi," she laughs, and oh, how delightful it sounds. I nearly have to shut my eyes to calm my pounding heart from the sight of her wide smile.

"God, I miss you."

"I'm right here, love,"

"I know," I swallow, resting my hand against the door. It's times like this that I wish I actually had superpowers. Ones that would be useful rather than causing harm. The thought of harm causes Mina to reappear in my mind. "Mina says hi."

"Aw, she couldn't come?"

"She didn't want to." I wasn't great at lying, and Sana knows her enough to not be upset. The older girl brings her bottom lip between her teeth.

"Is she still taking the pills?" 

"I don't know," I frown when Sana's happiness drops, "Momo is watching her really closely though. They miss you a lot. Do you know when you'll be out?" 

"Whenever he thinks it's fit," she replies, rolling her eyes, "Dahyun?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you think it was my fault that Mina took them?" My eyes widen as I shake my head rapidly.

"Not at all! Mina's a big girl. She took them because she wanted to-"

"She may be a big girl to you, Dahyun, but she's still my baby. I grew up with her, so I care about her immensely. Everything she does, I will take responsibility for even if I shouldn't. She's smart, but sometimes she's more broken than she is smart." Her caring nature is absolutely endearing, and the thought of marrying her reappears in my mind. I become angry with myself too quickly as I brush the thought away.

"Is that why you're beating yourself up?"

"Oh, darling, there's so many reasons why I'm doing that," her voice drops, but her smile doesn't fade.

"Can I hear them?"

"You're too curious," she says, and I shrug. Curiosity has always gotten the best of me. "First is you. You trust me, but I messed up, didn't I? You were terrified after I tried to kill Jennie. And sometimes I still swear that you are because you flinch if I get too close through this stupid, small window. But that wasn't me, and I can't control it. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I have emotions, and those fucking hurt me."

I prevent myself from completely interrupting her no matter how much I want to comfort her, "Two?"

"Two is the fact that I couldn't protect Jeongyeon. I couldn't do anything to help her when she needed it because I was too selfish, and I only thought about myself. I had to cry, and break her down some more before I felt alright."

"Three."

"Momo. God, Momo. You can see it in her eyes that she's hurting. I'm not stupid, Dahyun, she loves you. She loves you a lot, but I'm selfish. That's what I'm trying to get through your head: I'm selfish, and definitely don't deserve you. One day I'll find another reason to abandon you whether it be for your safety or for my own, but I don't want that."

"It doesn't have to happen," I remind her softly. She smiles sadly.

"It will though. You'll think I'm terrible, that I'm messed up, and I hope you hate me. I hope you don't remember me when it does. I hope I'm left alone with all of these negative thoughts while you're with Momo because I know you love her, too."

"I love you-"

"Maybe," she interrupts, "maybe you do. But Momo won't leave you like I will."

"Why will you leave?"

Sana scoffs, "I told you."

"That reason wasn't correct. Try again please."

"Of course it was correct."

"Sana. I love you." I repeat, reveling in the vulnerability in her eyes. I can see her slowly breaking down her walls.

"There's these voices that talk to me sometimes. And that's fucking terrifying because it's all in my head, but I'm so convinced that I'm this terrible person that everyone is supposed to hate. But before all of this, I only tried to think of positive things. I tried not to dwell on the bad things, but it isn't working anymore. You need someone who functions correctly, who won't hurt you if they feel a little bit too much. Please, Dahyunnie-"

I don't know what I'm doing as I press myself further into the door, a strange sensation flooding throughout my body. I shiver, shutting my eyes tightly. There's a wave of freezing air followed by hotter air, and before I know it, I'm in front of Sana. I reach out to make sure I'm not going insane. My fingers press against warm skin, and I nearly sob from how much I've missed the feeling of Sana, "I love you. I love you, I love you. I'm not afraid of you, I promise. You'll be okay. We'll be okay." I breathe her scent in as her arms tighten around my body, pulling me closer. Her cheeks are wet against my skin, but I don't care at all.

"I don't deserve you," she mumbles, and I nearly roll my eyes.

"You deserve the world and more. I'd bring you the moon if you asked."

"Why the moon?"

"I'm already touching the sun."

Thursday.

It's Thursday, and it's too early, and I already miss Sana so much that I think my body could be mistaking it as physical pain. I try not to focus on her too much as I wrap my arms around myself in the cold building. It shouldn't be this cold. I huff as Somi enters the room before wrapping a blanket of warm air around myself, "Good morning."

"It's not even seven," I groan.

Somi laughs, "I know. That doesn't mean it can't be good."

"Somi, I could literally still be in my bed right now. So I think it's safe to say that there's no reason I should be up right now which means it is absolutely terrible. And I haven't been able to see Chae, Jeong, or-"

"Sana. I know. But between you and me, Jihyo and I are trying our best to get them out. She's already mentioned it to him, but as far as I know, he's only confirmed that they will be out soon. Soon can translate to two weeks with him though." I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. The news is reassuring and upsetting at the same time. All I know is that she won't be in there forever, and that Somi is on our side. I smile.

"Thank you."

"You're thanking me?" I nod. "Why?" I don't get to reply because the doors are opened once again. Jinyoung adjusts his tie with a smile that does absolutely nothing to soothe me at all. Somi tenses visibly, so I reach out and squeeze her arm, a silent exchange flowing between us. 

"I'm glad you came, Dahyun," he begins, voice dripping with a warning. I'm not sure what he's trying to warn me about, but I know that he's capable of many things. So I keep my mouth shut before he finishes, "it's been a long time. Have you used your abilities since the last time we met?"

"Sometimes," I tell him. I don't want to tell him about how I managed to pass through a door for so many reasons, Sana's safety being the absolute first, "I still practice with Mina."

"How is she?"

"Okay." If you count sick okay. She told me that she tried to stop taking them, but it made her feel sick, and she kept scorching her sheets. I felt terrible, and I want to help her so badly, but I can't. And it's killing Momo just as badly.

"I should schedule an appointment," he mumbles, and I nearly panic because she isn't ready.

"No!" He turns back to me, one eyebrow raised. Somi knows about Mina. She knows about many things going on because she's close to Chaeyoung. She understands Chaeyoung's mind almost as well as Tzuyu does, and luckily, she believes the same as we do. She grew up around Jinyoung much like Jihyo did. She knows his true side. "Just focus on me. I'm not good yet. I, like, fell and hurt my wrist really bad last week because I lost control." It's a complete lie, and a terrible one at that.

"Did you?" Jinyoung hums. I nod as I try not to focus on biting my lip. Sana told me that when I try to lie, I do that. She's too observant. "Okay. We'll begin now."

It's a strange feeling to have someone tell you what to do. I should be used to it by now, but I'm not, and I still find it hard when he wants me to do something I don't know how to do. He's an air sign however, so I think I lucked out with that factor. With Jinyoung in general? I wish I could do better. I don't like what he's done to us. I hate it.

"You've improved a lot," he says. I feel happy from the praise, but it's coming from Jinyoung, and I know he isn't good. I know that he's terrible, and that his wish is to only tear us apart. I am not as naive as so many of his staff think. "It's no secret that I am also an air sign. Jihyo, too," the mention makes me upset though I try to hide it, "and you are, too. One major ability that air signs possess would be teleportation. You cannot travel to another country or city, of course not, but you have the ability to pass through rooms, and buildings. I want you to try that."

I don't open my mouth to tell him that I think I've already done it. He dismisses Somi with a wave. Jackson takes her place, eyeing me carefully. I don't think his intentions are bad. And if they are, well, they're sure not as bad as Jinyoung's. He seems like a good man.

"Do you see that wall?" I nod. The wall is really just a window, but it's no doubt that it's another room. It makes me wonder how I've never noticed it before. "Pass through it. The easiest way to do this is not to try and teleport from where you are. I want you to press yourself against it, and relax. Breathe in and out very slowly. Imagine you're trying to make yourself fall asleep." I'm confused as to why he's being so casual about it, like so much didn't happen these past weeks. Sometimes I think he's truly and absolutely insane.

I do as I'm told to avoid getting yelled at. The wall is cold, and I'm not sure how to do it with his directions. My breathing is as slow as possible, but I don't feel myself melting into the wall just yet. I groan in frustration, my patience thinner than it has ever been. I think of Sana, and how maybe if I'm good enough for Jinyoung, he'll allow her out faster. He'll consider Somi's request, and also Jihyo's. I could act like Jihyo is teaching us to be better. I know she'll try. The familiar yet odd sensation of freezing air followed by hot air comes once again, and I don't know whether to wrap myself up with my arms or try and blanket cold air around my body. I feel dizzy, and kind of sick when I open my eyes. Jinyoung is standing with slightly widened eyes, "You look like you've done it before." His voice is muffled, but I can still hear him.

"I, um, have," I swallow. Jinyoung shakes it head.

"Obviously. You should have told me. Today's training was useless, was it not?"

"No! Jihyo has taught me-"

"More lies. The girl mostly resides in the room I gave her. And she's lucky I gave her that after the stunt she pulled. News has gotten out, Dahyun, and I've lost a lot of money and support."

I scoff, passing back through the wall as anger rises in my chest, "Seriously? Is that all you care about? Money?"

"I care about my employees-"

"You're such a liar," I don't recognize my voice, and it's scary to me. But thinking about the fact that he couldn't care less about us, and Jihyo, and Somi- It's infuriating. 

"Jihyo is one as-" Jackson wraps his arms around me, holding me tight as my mark pulses violently. I don't struggle against his hold, too focused on keeping my emotions in check. It's harder than it should be.

"Get her name out of your mouth!"

"Dahyun, please, calm down. You'll only harm yourself." He stays so calm, and that does absolutely nothing but make me angrier. I breathe in and think of Sana, and Momo, and Mina, but it isn't working, and I'm so frustrated that my heart is pounding and my breath is uneven.

"You don't care, so why should I?" I laugh, my eyes clouding up slightly. I blink away the tears that threaten to fall, and I don't even know why the hell I'm crying. "Let Sana go. And let Jeongyeon and Chaeyoung go, and don't bother us."

"It's already in my plans, dear-"

"Bullshit." I could totally throw Jackson away from me, but I don't want to make Jinyoung angry. I breathe in shakily, "if you were going to, they would already be out." He sighs heavily.

"I'll talk to Jihyo tonight." It's not a promise.
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A/N: updates are now once/twice a week s;dkgjshjj sorry about that,,