She's Outta Your League

Secrets Open

When l spilled the truth , it was only meant for Conrad , yes , very specifically CONRAD ONLY! Just like a Confidential letter  ,I trusted Conrad . Sadly , I was wrong , the bloody confidential thing l told Conrad just was spread to the boys of our class . Even Mac , the secret was "I like Mac too." These four letters couldn't be kept a bloody secret . Seriously Conrad I hate you . Well the feeling was mutual that's what Conrad said when he became my best friend after 7 months but forget that for now .

      When l got Conrad's number l even got Mac's number , sadly Mac, already knew everything , eventually we all became close friends , like inseparable ,not because we all shared the same secret but because we all were meant for each other . Everything was going perfectly fine . Well to keep you guys entertained , Mac once told Conrad "She is ugly." Conrad told me , "He just said ugly . Like not even a lil ugly , not even a bit ugly ,just straight UGLY." My reply , as always "His vocabulary is small so , it's pretty awesome that he just said just a huge word." (P.S , his vocabulary was actually small ) , well Conrad and l made great friends , we both had each other's back and not to mention he was such a supportive friend (sarcasm got it's way in) , our friendship grew to such a point that his mom started to eventually hate me , whereas Mac , the day Conrad told him those 4 letter words which were only meant for Conrad , that very day Mac told his mom .
    
      Ikr , reaaaallllllyyyyy cool .. Just wow . Who tells their mom about all this?! Well not to mention , I was the first person to like him , which sorta made me think ,is he even cute? I ONLY liked Mac cause of his innocent (I know I'm weird AF)  . We all were 12 (now we're 13) back then so , I don't think liking a person for their innocence was such a big deal , was it? Idk , but Mac and l became really close and so did Conrad , Mac and Conrad hated each other like hell! They seriously weren't meant to be cousins (should have been born in 2 different families ) they were some serious shit , I have seen them fight and it's much worse than Cat Fights (girl fights)  .

Mac and l become so close that he was extremely open to me , specially his feelings were just amazing for me , and then me on the other hand , I was open too . Well only one problem , when meeting on Sundays we couldn't make eye contact cause we spoke a lot of shit , which we couldn't speak face forward . Conrad and l just eventually became best friends forever . With time , there parents hated me to the core , but it would stop us . We were teens after all , rebellious teens ..  Best part was I was Conrad's height which is 5'5 whereas Mac is 5'9 . Now it's 2018 . It's been a year since all this shit ! Mac and l wouldn't stop fighting for long hours , then we both would make up and become okay . Conrad and l were still the same , Best Friends Forever . I came to know a lot about Mac , his feelings for me and stuff , but still he wasn't my bf , we just couldn't do it . 

     Conrad made it possible with some real news this time ,l clearly remember the day he told me this , it was a Sunday , so we have our Sunday school  , I met up with Conrad and he told me this " this happened last week on a Tuesday , he was telling his classmates at school that he had a gf , who comes to our sunday school , she wears glasses , has short hair and her name starts with J, sooooooo , I'm guessing it's YOU!" And there goes my balance , tip over my shoes n fall , almost falling on a fucking birdcage . Conrad as usual , laughing his ass off . He always wanted this day to happen , he would almost everyday ask me "Don't you want Mac to be your bf?"
"No."
"Why?"
"Cause the sky is too high. Got it?"
My sarcasm was really awesome lol . So was Conrad's . That moment , I thought l was gonna faint , well I had gone into coma for almost a month . I asked Conrad , "if Mac wants me as his gf why couldn't he just ask me? It's very simple you know ." Conrad's replied " Well maybe he is just saying that he is accepting you ,maybe you should ask him out." Me , jaw on the floor staring that nothing , yes well it was shocking , it had me shookth . Conrad was just excited lmaoo , I didn't understand why ? Like seriously boy , I don't know I'm just so speechless ...