~A Light in the Shadows~ PRINXIETY FANFIC [EDITING] (temporary cover)

Chapter Four~ The Dark Doesn't Take Prisoners

Virgil's POV:

All of the air suddenly vacated my lungs. Princey doesn't know I can hear all his negative thoughts. He...he really does hate me.

'I-I can't breathe. God, I'm such a fuck up. Why did I say all of that? Why was I so rude to him? WHY WHY WHY? What is he gonna think of me? What are they all gonna think of me? Oh. My. God.'

I shook my head, trying to chase out my thoughts, but they wouldn't stop. I crawled into the corner and hugged my knees. Of course, I was having a panic attack. I was the living embodiment of anxiety, after all. Panic attacks were just a fact of life. I knew what was coming, yet I still couldn't calm myself down. My heart started beating faster and faster. The room seemed to close in around me. Everything was so dark.

He hates you so much. They all hate you. They hate you so much, they can barely even stand you. You should just kill yourself so they can stop suffering. It would ease all of the pain.

The voice was right. The voice was so right, it hurt. I was just causing all of the others pain. Everything would be better if I just....

'YOU'RE NOT HELPING, YOU KNOW'

Why would I help you? We're enemies, remember?

'Whatever. I'm not giving up, not yet.'

Well, it's your funeral.

The voice laughed at its stupid joke. My hands started to shake, so I just hugged my knees tighter. I just wanted this all to be over.

'No one would even miss me if I died. I'm so worthless. I'm so weak. I'm just a disorder, a mistake, a burden. Maybe that voice was right. Maybe I should just.... God, why do I always feel like this? I fucking hate this. I hate this and I hate myself. I wish I never existed. Then maybe then none of this would've happened.

See? I'm always right. If you never existed, everyone would be happy. Instead, you just had to fuck everything up by existing.

'I GET IT, OKAY? I SHOULDN'T BE ALIVE. EVERYONE WOULD BE HAPPIER IF I WAS DEAD! ARE YOU HAPPY?'

The voice paused for a while. I could feel myself tearing up.

You know what will make me happy.

I buried my face in my knees and let the tears flow down my face until the sweet embrace of sleep swept over me.

A/N~

Hi! Sorry for the short chapter! I just wanted to get this part out here. I promise the next chapter will be much longer. Will Roman and Virgil get over their hate for each other? Will the mysterious voice finally convince Virgil to do its bidding? Find out soon!