It's Alright to be Together

Chapter 11

~3rd person POV~

Zane knew it to be stupid. Jenny had said come later that night but he couldn't help himself. He was just so overwhelmed with joy that waiting outside all morning had paid off: he knew where his love was and he was going to make everything right. Or at least everything he could. Nothing could really excuse his actions but a part of him couldn't help it. The black-haired male was aware that the kind of relationship he was involved with wasn't exactly customary in any way; consequently, he had wanted to avoid telling the full truth to Y/n until he was ready. Looking back it was stupid yet somehow a mistake he would make again if given the chance. He loved Y/n far too much to chance that if he had been forth with her from the beginning she would have never gone out with him and they would have never shared the times they had together. Maybe she would be better off by now if they had never gone out but Zane didn't really think about that. It might make him seem like a selfish jerk but he didn't care. Y/n just meant that much to him but it still wasn't enough for him to leave his other lovers-he loved them just as much.

The male ran to the elevator, in a rush to get to the room. Zoe had told him the room and floor number since she had been there many times herself. She even offered to go with him but Zane didn't feel that was the best idea under the given circumstances.

"Excuse me," he said, pushing past a few people in the hallway as he rushed out of the small elevator.

"Where's the fire fucker?" one of the males growled irritably as he pushed past. Zane ignored him; he was too intent on going to Y/n.

Finally he reached her door-number 103. He stopped, panting slightly. His hand hovered over the door but didn't yet knock. Should I? He honestly was still unsure if he should even be here. He so desperately wanted to be here but should he actually? If he tried to explain things would it only hurt Y/n more? He didn't know and that's why he hadn't been at her door before or even earlier. Hell, it took him all the guts he had to stand outside the building after several days from when Y/n had fled. He sighed. Maybe he should just wait... but he couldn't stand the thought of Y/n remembering him as a cheating dick who never cared. He was a dick but he did care-so very much so.

He held his breath as his knuckles made contact with the hard wooden door one, two, three times. No response. He waited. Still no response. He sighed, finally letting out the breath he had been holding. Maybe she isn't home, he thought silently to himself, unsure. His blue eyes no longer held his prior enthusiasm and excitement. No, he tried to reason with himself, I was at the only exit so she has to be inside. The male chose to remain ignorant to the idea of multiple exits but even then wouldn't Y/n go out the same place as Jenny? It didn't matter. Zane still had to try.

He knocked three times again. There was still no response. His heart quivered and tears threatened to start falling again. Taking a deep, controlled breath, he let out a choky, "Y/n?" He waited again. Seconds ticked by but there was still no response. Zane took another deep breath.

"Y/n... Y/n I know you're in there. Please, talk to me." He held his breath but surprise surprise there was once again no response. Yet the young male refused to give up hope so he continued, "If you don't want to talk to me or see me then that's fine, but please at least listen." Again he paused, not expecting a response-although he was hopeful for one-but rather to get his thoughts in order. His electric eyes stared solemnly at the foreboding door that would stay between him and his love if he did not choose his words wisely. "I... I love you Y/n. I know I screwed up but that will never change. I wasn't cheating with Zoey . I was... Well, rather..." Zane took another deep breath. Tears were threatening to overspill from his eyes and he was struggling to contain his emotions.

"We're all in a polygamist relationship. All of us-Zoey, Tyler, Charisse, and I-we are all lovers. I didn't mean to pull you into it-I didn't plan it. I didn't plan to fall for you but I couldn't help it. There was just something about you. Something special. Something..." He smiled softly to himself as he remembered when he first met his love. "I know I screwed up and I should have been honest from the beginning. I'm sorry. But I was worried you would never accept me then and I..." He sighed and struggled to again, not cry. Zane felt so horrible for what he had done and hated himself for everything. "I was selfish and there's no excuse for that. Just please try to understand. You can stay with us or-" he choked as tears rolled down his cheeks from what he was about to say next, "-or I'll stay out of your life forever. Tell me what you want and I'll do it. Take as long as you need to decide."

He paused for the umpteenth time. It felt like he was talking to a wall. Maybe you already moved on from him and no longer cared at all. That hurt him even more and he started crying more. "Please say something Y/n. Give me a si-"

BANG! It sounded like something fell over inside. Zane smiled slightly behind his tears. He took it as a sign she was listening even though she said nothing. After all, Zoey had been close with Jenny and informed him Jenny was currently living alone and since Jenny had left and Y/n moved in with her, Y/n was the only probable person on the other side of the door. It was painful that she didn't respond but he was glad to feel she had heard him and hadn't immediately said no.

"Well, you know where to find me, Y/n. I'll be waiting." He pulled away from the door but stopped for a moment to add, "I love you Y/n. I hope to see you soon." He gave a weak smile before wiping his eyes and walking away, With his hood pulled up over his head the male stepped back out into the cold with a silent prayer on his lips: that he would see you again.