Insecure || JJK

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Chapter 12

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"Your ass can't sit on the table with us, find another table hoe this is our place."

You nodded forced and annoyed as you stood up grabbing your school tray and bag heading to the hall.

Good thing that you're already finished eating when those group of sluts came in so you don't have to find another place to sit because you'll never find one.

Everybody hates you and no one will ever side with you.

And speaking of your 'side', Taehyung, your one and only cousin left the school for abroad. His family suddenly moved to Australia and you don't know why, it was so sudden.

You felt lonely and incomplete having Taehyung not around. You know you'll be in a great big trouble without him, no one will control Adalyn's perfect evil plans for you anymore.

You went away heading to the garden where Jungkook first approached you.

You bitterly smiled remembering a moment of your life that will never happen again, it's impossible after all this. Tears rolled down on your cheeks while you clutched your aching and swollen stomach.

Jungkook and you is impossible to be friends again and more so it's impossible for the both of you to grow such mutual feelings for each other.

You felt helpless and angry.

"Jeon Jungkook, you're stupid. I warned you already."

You sat down on the exact same bench at the exact same position.

You fished for your phone on your pocket and dialed Taehyung's number hoping he'll answer right away. You tried multiple times and on your eleventh try it succeeded.

Toning down you sniffles and sobs you released your first words.

"Taehyung-ah, come back. I'm not well."

"What happened, please tell me."

And you bursted out while Taehyung on the other line was surprised and clearly tired from the traveling and jetlag.

His voice was hoarse and inaudible sensing he just woke up from a nap or more so in the middle of his sleep for it was night there.

You heard shifting of blankets and clicks of what you assume is his lamp that confirms that you disturbed him in his sleep.

"H-he marked me down, s-she marked him down."

After saying those simple sentence Taehyung practically shouted a 'what' repeatedly trying to process everything that happened.

But when he realized what you meant he immediately told you not to hang up and talk to him, to tell him everything that happened, to tell him what exactly is the reason for it and how did it happen in the first place. He told you to stay and he told you to cooperate but your mind, body and soul couldn't.

You shaked in voluntarily as you remembered all the things that happened yesterday.

It's still fresh and vivid to your memories as he used you for his pleasures. All that you could muster is to sob and to cry while Taehyung is trying to comfort you.

"He raped me Tae, he raped me."

"Y/n please listen-"

"Goodbye."

You trembled more and dropped the phone beside you. Still hearing Taehyung's worried shouts from the other line, you stood up finding some support for your jelly like state.

You took more steps and saw a rope lying on the ground, a rope that you could use to end all of this.

You went to pick up the rope and found a perfect tree to tie it.

You walked slowly eyeing the surroundings without a single color of happiness to it. You smiled, sighing as more drops of water stained your face, it was relieving how ending your life would be much better than staying.

You're ugly.

You're useless.

You're pathetic.

You're nothing

You're a disappointment.

You're just an insecure and jealous girl over her stepsister who gets everything.

"Perfect."

You said as you set up the place where everything will finally end. You stood up a rock stepping on it. It perfectly elevated you while you loop around the rope on your neck.

You closed your eyes and closed your fist as you prepare yourself for death.

You can't hear anything, classes must be ongoing this time and no one would be lurking around the garden making it easier for you to leave the world.

You became numb and sick.

Everything shut down before you and all is well.

"Jeon Jungkook, I love you."

As much as you hate crying you let it out this time and cried more after saying the three words you feel for Jungkook.

The sky cried too with you making the rocks slippery and dangerous, it was really perfect.

You aim to jump having everything reminisce on your head.

"I really love you but you don't feel the same."

And you exhaled your last breath contented on your last words.

Jump? Yes, Jump. Go and count and after you'll jump.

Aim.

Start.

Do it.

In three.

Two.

One.

"No! Please!"

Jump.

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