I Never Searched, But I Found You

Part 22

The next morning Raman slept, Adi lay next to him and drank his milk. Ishita stood in front of the mirror and brushed her wet hair.

Raman woke up and looked at his son.
R: Good Morning, mera bachcha

Adi smiled as he continued to drink his milk.
R: Since someone has a good mood
I: Yes, he is such a sweetheart
R: Good Morning
I: Morning Raman

Ishita looked in the mirror and thought "Should I ask him directly if he wants a divorce"?

I: Raman can we talk ?
R: About what ?
I: Our first wedding Anniversary
R: How do you want to do it ? I mean because of our deal. Do you want this family celebration or should we skip that ?
I mean ...

Ishita cuts him

I: Deal ? we are a deal for you ?
R: I did not mean that...
I: No ? how did you mean it ?

Silence

R: Sorry, you are not a deal for me.

I: Are we something like a contract for you ? Which ends, as soon as the conditions are fulfilled ?

R: Whoa, hold on, Why are you so angry ?

ishita looked at him

I: Sorry I have no right to be angry , you're right, it's a deal.

R: That sounds worse than it meant.
Tell me, how should we do it ? Before or after the anniversary ...

He did not pronounce the word, but Ishita knew what he meant. She had to hide her pain now and most of all, she had to get out of here.!

She went to the wardrobe and took out her suitcase.

R: What are you doing ?
I: There are only a few weeks left. I should move out. How else do you want to explain our divorce ? If I live here until the last day ?

Raman got up and went to her
R: Ishita let's talk about it
I: I thought we were doing that right now

She put the suitcase on the bed and began to pack. Raman held her by the arm.

R: Ishita, talk to me
I: I do not want a party for our first wedding anniversary. We played enough drama.
R: Ok, then tell me what you want

Was that a Joke ? her husband stood in front of her and asked what she wanted ?

"YOU ! I want you ,you idiot! " She cried inside.

I: Fine, Adi and I will move to Amma, you send me the divorce papers, I sign, done

Raman said nothing

I: What ? That was our agreement, right ?
R: I can see Adi whenever I want ?
I: That was our deal, Right?
R: Do not worry, I'll take care of you and Adi.
I: You can do that for Adi, but I do not want anything from you.! You are his father forever, but not my husband.!

She ran through the room and packed her stuffs.

R: We are still friends ?
I: We where ever been friends? We are Adi's parents. Please, let us end this in peace, for Adi"s sake.

R: That's exactly what I want. A peaceful and amicable divorce.

Ishita had the feeling that her whole world was collapsing over her right now.!

I: Was this whole year just a joke for you? Fun, for which you did not have to go out the door ? Because I was not more for you, as fun.

R: It's not like that
I: How is it then ? shouted Ishita

Adi started crying. Ishita picked him up.
I: Sorry Baby ,

R: Why are you so angry ?  That was our agreement or am I wrong ? You were not fun for me, you are the mother of my child and you will always be an important part of my life. You have all my respect.

I: And yet you treat me just like that as if I were one of yours concubine. I hope, it was all to your satisfaction Mr.Bhalla.

R: Ishita, do not say that. I never wanted to hurt you. You are important to me, you know that. But I am not a man for eternity. I wish I was.

I: Don't worry,i'm not hurt. I know,you have to be free.
R: I am so sorry
I: it's ok

She closed the suitcase. She was carrying Aid in her hip.
I: Tell your parents, we argued and I left. Send me the divorce papers. You can see Adi whenever you want. Take care Raman.

He looked at her and Adi and he was sad

I: Do not you want to say goodbye to Adi?
Raman took Adi and hugged him. "I love you" Adi looked at him with his big eyes
Raman hugged him tightly and cried.

He looked at Ishita

R:  Now that it's time, I find it hard to let you go.

"Then stop me" thought Ishita

R: What if you stay here ?
I: For how long ? You said you're not that kind of man. You need your freedom.

R: I can not promise you anything. I do not know, what's in 1 month, 6 months or 1 year. The only thing i know right now  is that I don't  want you to leave.

I: Sorry Raman, but that is not enough for me. If only it would be about me. I could handle it, but it's also about Adi.. Now he is still small and does not understand it, but what if you think in 4 years that you want to be free again?
That will affect him, now he is too small and it will be normal for him that his parents are divorced.

I: I want my child to grow up in normal family and not where he does not know, if his father is still here tomorrow.

R: It would not be like that, please don't go
I: You just told me, you can not promise me anything. Raman we have responsibility for Adi. We can not let him grow up in such a mess.

R: Yes, you're right. Maybe I'm just selfish.

R: I'm afraid that I can not give you what you deserve.You deserve a husband who will be by your side until the end.

I: Thanks for being honest with me. I have to think about Adi, It's not just about the two of us.

Ishita took Adi, She carrying the baby on her hips. With the other hand she pulled the suitcase.

R: let me help you, you can not go down the stairs like that.
I: Don't worry, I can do it

She turned and walked out. She went down the stairs, trying to pull the suitcase behind her softly. It was Sunday and very early and she did not want to wake anyone.

She walked in the direction of the door when she heard a voice behind her.

"Where are you going ? Puttar "

Ishita turned around

"Mamiji "

To be continued