A Thing Called Life

A Thing Called Sadness

I didn't go to the funeral. I just couldn't take the sadness, crying and the long speeches. Everybody at the school went but me. I just don't do funerals. Someone opens the door without asking me. "Hey." Rocky says, while opening the door. "Hey Rocky." I said. "Look, I know how you feel. I had a best friend named Sarah, she was kidnapped. Well, she went missing. I never saw her again. I don't think I can get over it." she said sitting on my bed.

"Wow Rocky. I never knew that. I'm so sorry." I said. "Hey. It's not your fault." she said, while punching my arm in a friendly way. "So how come you didn't want to come to the funeral?" I kinda turned away. "I just can't deal with it." I said, sniffing. "You can't deal with it or you don't want to." she said. Damn. She makes a lot of sense. I don't want to deal with but I don't have to either. I don't do funerals and I don't like death. "Robby, you still didn't answer my question." "Look Rocky, I see what you're saying. But I didn't want to go and I didn't have to. End of conversation." I said, putting my head into my pillow. "Robby. Please hear my out. Her burial is tomorrow." she said, while getting up.

"Just think about it,okay." she said. Then she closed the door. You know what. I guess I should show some respect. Ya know, Rocky's only here for four more days. So I get out my phone and dial Tyra's house.

Ms. Quanerez: Hola.

Robby: Ms. Quanerez, I'm very sorry I couldn't make it to the funeral.

Ms. Quanerez: Oh Robby. Como estas?

Robby: Muy bien. Well, that's a lie. Ms. Quanerez I didn't go because I couldn't deal with your daughter's death. I'm so sorry. I promise I'll be at the burial tomorrow.

Ms. Quanerez: Mucho Gracias!

She hang up the phone and I just laughed. I made a promise and I'm going to stick to it. Nothing's going to stop me. I'm glad Rocky talked to me about it. I think it's time to take a nap.

So I woke up and it's time for dinner. I have to make things right with EVERYBODY. So I called DeAndre over. I said it was Chad who was talking to him. So when dinner's ready I tell everybody to hold off for a second. So DeAndre comes over and I tell him to sit down. "Look everybody, I have something to say." I said. "This should be good", DeAndre says to himself. "Lilah. I know that you're getting older and I'll give you your space."

"But I'll still be that over-protective brother. But what I'm trying to say is that, I'm so sorry Lilah. You're my sister and I love you. You're one of the most important people in my life and I've hurt you. I'm sorry." I said. Then I turned to mom and dad. "You guys were right. I did easedrop. And I'm sorry. Not just for the easedropping but for everything from the first whooping till the last. And mom, I never meant to yell at you and dad dido."

Then I turned to Chad. "Chad. I'm sorry I attacked you. I got pissed and I just lost it. You know I love you bro." Then last but not least, I turned to DeAndre. "DeAndre you're my brother too. And I'm sorry, for everything. Please forgive me. And I promise we'll get through this together. Now to everybody, I'm sorry. I know you can't just forgive me over night but we can start by telling each other everything. But hopefully we'll recover together. What do ya say?"

Then everybody got up and group hugged me. I'm trying to get over a thing called sadness.