it was my fault

Chapter 1: acting weird

Anne's perspective.
It's spring.
Lovely. I love spring.
Everything is coming to life again.
Everything is growing.
The day is getting bigger and
Green gables is extra beautiful this season.
I just adore the wild flowers blooming everywhere having every color you could ever imagine.
The lake of shining waters is even more breathtaking and the white way of delight is whiter that ever.

But school. Oh school.

I have to unfortunately admit that school isn't that fun or exciting as it used to be when I first started. Everything seems settled down with the girls and in general with the whole class. I shouldn't and can't complain, I am very glad about that but everything just seems too plain at the moment.
I think I've come to a point where I know what's missing.

The competition.

At first, being the first student in class was something special and you had to fight for this place and try your hardest to stay up there.
But now, I feel like this place is just given to me as a gift. I am not trying that hard anymore. I'm just there.
Waiting for someone to come and compete with me.
But no one seems to care that much.

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The past week I've been acting kind of weird and I don't even know why myself.
I caught myself staring at Moody's seat in class. He seats where once my rival used to seat,
Gilbert Blythe.
I was daydreaming and imagining about where he was right at that moment.
Was he traveling?
Where was he working?
Did he see some of the world as he said he wanted to?
What did he see?
And immediately I started sighing because I'm completely sure the places he visited are way far from even my imagination!
Those places must be plain wonderful.
But then, reality interrupted me.

"Anne? Are you feeling alright?" Diana asked me looking worried.

"What? Um- I.. yeah I'm fine." I turned my face to Diana's.

"Are you sure about that Anne?"

"Yes."

"Okay then because you've been staring at Moody the whole day...
do you like him?"

I couldn't believe what she was saying. How could my bosom friend Diana even think that I am interested in Moody at all.

"Of course not Diana! What are you talking about?! How could I like Moody?!!"

"I'm sorry Anne. But I had to ask you. You've been staring at him for the past almost week."

"Anne Shirley and Diana Barry! I'll have to punish you if you continue talking!" Mr. Phillips yelled at us and the conversation had to end.
...and I was glad it ended.

But at lunch Diana grabbed my hand and pulled me on the side to talk to me.

"So tell me Anne!"

"Wha-"

"Oh! I know what happened. You miss him."

"Who are you talking about? Who could I possibly be miss-"

"Gilbert of course! Now it makes sense. You stare at his seat and not Moody! What was I thinking?" she said while laughing.

"Diana I don't miss him okay? I miss the competition. I used to try harder to be the first student, but now I don't. I feel like there's no point anymore because I have no one to complete with."

"Oh Anne..Don't worry! He'll come back soon I heard."

What? Is Gilbert coming back? Is my rival coming back?

"Anne? Did you hear me? I said he's coming back!!"

"Who told you that?"

"Oh, I heard mother and Mrs. Gillis talking about him. They said that he's coming home in two weeks or so.. I can't wait for him to tell us his adventures! Don't you agree?"

"Yes. Of course."

The rest of the day I couldn't stop thinking about what may have happened to him these past months that he's been away.
Maybe he traveled to many places.
Maybe he only visited one.
Maybe he found a beautiful girl with long black curly hair with shining blue eyes looking amazing against her black eyelashes..
and fell in love with her.

Maybe.

The one thing I'm sure about is that if Gilbert did find a girl, she must be breathtaking to look at.

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