it was my fault

Chapter 2: finally coming back

Gilbert's perspective.

It's already spring.

Time passes by so quickly.

It seems like yesterday when I left Avonlea.
When I first started my journey it was pretty difficult for me to even find a job, and sometimes a bed to sleep.

But now, everything is settled down because a kind man took me under his wing.

Sebastian.

He's a middle aged lovely kind man that offered to help me and give me a job and a room to stay in his house. He has a wife, mrs Smith, and a 5 year old daughter named Millie. I have been working with him for the past months now. I am extremely grateful that I found this lovely family and that Sebastian introduced me to his job and life with the kindest way.

But lately I have been feeling kind of stuck.

I deeply miss Avonlea.
The fresh wind,
the lovely lake,
school,
home,
and most importantly,

the people there.

I dearly miss the people of Avonlea.
My friends, my class and everyone.

..and especially one.
and it's a her.
and it's Anne.
Anne Shirley.
Anne Shirley Cuthbert.

It drives me crazy thinking about her.
I can't get over the way she speaks,
the way she uses words and the way she places them in a sentence.

When someone mentions Avonlea or says something poetic from a book, my mind goes immediately back to Anne.

And then, when she reaches my mind once again, it takes a while for her to go away from my thoughts because I start questioning what's going on at school.

Is Billy teasing her again?
Is everything okay with the girls?
Is Mr. Phillips being too harsh on her again?

And then I start worrying and blaming myself thinking that if anyone annoys or hassles Anne, I am not there to help her, although I know she wouldn't want my help anyways.

I am completely sure she's the best student in class!
She's extremely smart, imaginative and open minded.

But lately I just knew I had to do something.

So I decided to talk to Sebastian about Avonlea.

"Well then you should go back." he said when I finished explaining what I was feeling.

"Really?"

"Of course! You should go back when you're ready, and I think now you are."

He paused for a bit.

"I think I should come with you, you'll definitely need some help for a month or so to settle down. I would be happy to help, and when everything's alright, I will return back home."

"Why, thank you very much Sebastian, but are you sure you wanna get yourself in so much trouble? You really don't need to come with me, I can go by myself."

"Stop this foolishness! I'm coming with you and that's it!" he said while giving me a pat on the back.

We decided we would travel back to Avonlea in two weeks or so. We needed time to pack and prepare our belongings and work a bit harder to have some extra money for the first weeks home.

I am already kind of stressed about what my reunion with Anne will look like.
I'm not gonna lie, I had many dreams about possible ways we will reunite.

One side of me wants to prepare a whole monologue to know by heart to tell her when I see her.
But the other side of me doesn't want to scare her off.
I am really confused but excited at the same time.
I hope she'll be happy to see me.

She better be.

It wouldn't make sense if she wasn't, right?
We became kind of friends and apologized to each other before I was gone, so I guess everything is alright between us.

..right?

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Hey I hope you liked this and thank you so much for reading you're so cool just sayin'
ps. I hope that was accurate lmao but really I think he would think all these things.😂