Anti gay school AU | Jikook | Based on a YT FMV

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I update alot now, I know, because I try to update as much as I can. Our vacation is going to end on Monday, which means I wouldn't have the time to update when school starts.

Jimin's POV

What have I done?!

I fucking kissed Jeon Jeongguk.

I have sinned too much, I can't anymore. I just kissed back because I thought it was my girlfriend Alyssa from America or I just found his lips so addictive and soft. I went by the first one.

I planned to ignore Jungkook for the remaining schoolyear, which wasn't that long anymore. I wanted to forget the events of that day.  What would my parents think of me if they found out? 

I was scared, but I knew I wasn't gay since I dearly loved my girlfriend Alyssa. Even though she wasn't here the whole time, only on free days, I still loved her with my heart.

*time skip to the next day*  I'm just lazy, okay?

I saw Jungkook in class today. Ofcourse Jimin, he is your neighbour. I facepalmed myself mentally. I tried to focus on my math sheet, but I couldn't.

Jungkook changed somehow. He had swollen eyes, puffy eyes- wait, those were the symptoms of after crying. He had been crying and I don't know why, but I was worried. My gut was telling me that something wasn't right.

"J-Jungkook, a-are you okay?", I broke the promise I made myself, to ignore him. He stared daggers at me with fury in his eyes. "Why do you even care?", he huffed. "After you left me."

Those word were like a knife pierced through my heart. My friend, my very own friend just said that. "What do you mean 'left'?" , I said not wanting to recall the events of the day before. "The kiss. We kissed, remember? You just grabbed your things and ran out."

"I only kissed you because your lips reminded me of the lips of Alyssa, my girlfriend. After all, you just wanted to try something out.", I bit back.

Pure hurt flickered in his eyes after I said that. He said it himself, right? "I just want to try something", which mean, he did an experiment with no feelings attached. I mean, he also said he was straight and he maybe wanted to try out how it was to be gay and disgusted as much as I did.

I saw tears in his eyes, he was also biting his lower lip. He raised his hand.

"Mr. Park, can I go to the washroom", the teacher nodded and he immediately left, taking his bag with him. I was curious as to why he would take his bag, so I asked if I could go to the toilet, too. Mr.Park nodded again and I followed after Jungkook. (Mr. Park as in Park Jihoon, not Jimin's dad)

I saw him turning around a corner to the bathroom. He went inside. I waited outside and I started hearing winces and hisses after a while. I dared to take a glance inside and the sight was horrifying.

Jungkook was cutting himself. Blood red marks were displayed on both his wrists, still fresh. He cut himself? Why? I didn't realize I opened the door even further,  where I could clearly see Jungkook's tear stained face. I didn't want to see him cutting himself anymore, so I barged in.

"Jeon Jungkook, what the fuck are you doing? Cutting yourself. Do you know how dangerous that is? You could die!", he didn't say anything and stared at the floor. "Please don't tell anyone. Nobody knows,  except you."

I sighed and didn't know what to do. I grabbed his hands, my tears falling on my cheeks as did Jungkook's on his. We looked at each other. I averted my gaze. "Did that kiss mean anything to you?", I asked.

His breath hitched and he didn't answer. After a while he did. "If it didn't mean anything to you, I would just leave you alone.", I was startled. He spoke slow, hurt still in his eyes and his voice broke while he spoke. He smoothly redirected the question to me. To be honest, the kiss didn't mean anything to me. Hell, I'm not even gay! But apparently, Jungkook was. Then it hit me, Jungkook was gay!

"Be honest Jeon. Are you gay?", I said angrily. He was scared and I backed him against a wall. "I thought you already realized that.", he said, voice slightly shaking. More anger boiled in me. I took his face between my fingers for the last time and threw it away. He bumped against a toilet stall. I left reluctantly and slammed the door.

I made my way to the office of Mrs. Park, my mom.

I knocked on her door. "Yes?", I hear a voice from the inside. I went in and saw my mom sitting at her desk, writing something down. "Oh hello son, what's wrong?", she said while smiling. "I have something to report. Jeon Jeongguk is gay, which is against the rules of this school.", I wasn't sure if I should have done that. Sure, I was a traitor to my friend, but I love my parents more. My mom stood up and grabbed a file,  which I assumed, was Jungkook's. "I believe you, but I need proof as in video proof. Otherwise, I'll have to let him go on this school because I didn't have an actual reason to kick him out without proof." I nodded. "I'll provide it."

Jungkook's POV

Again because of my sexuality?  Why does everybody have something against us? We are normal human beings, who breathe and eat like all the others. Love is love, whether it's the same gender or not.

All the self harm wasn't enough. The pain was too much.

I was going to kill myself on the next day. Determined.

*time skip* my heart is hurting bc of this ;(

I didn't want to eat anything at lunch. There was a huge buffet, but I couldn't get myself to eat. "Hey kid, eat a bit, okay?",Hobi and Yoongu said. I shook my head like a child. I haven't eaten or drunk the whole day. My body was longing for it, but I declined any offer of food or drinks.

My head was spinning and I had to get support from Yoongi. "Whatever diet this is, it's not very good.", Hobi said.

I went to the bathroom as soon as we entered our dorm.

I was going to do it.

I took the sleeping pills I had. I sat down on the cold floor, letting my last thoughts flood my brain.

The kiss.

The bullying on my old school.

My depression.

The hurting words people said to me.

Jimin.

My parents and Namjin.

Teahyung, my best friend.

And lastly, Yoongi and Hoseok.

I gulped. People said that after your death you will go to heaven, where you will live a good live. I wanted a good life.

I took all the pills that were left in the box and moved my shaky hand. I swallowed every pill.

The world began to turn. After a few minutes of sleepiness everything went black.

The last thing I heard was: "Jungkook, are you okay in there?"

Now I was.

It's not the end yet. My heart hurt while writing this. I'm sorry for not warning you beforehand. You can still leave if you don't feel comfortable with this.