I Want To Live

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Draco hasn't left very much over the past few days. I'm worried about him.

I don't want him to be in a state of constant deterioration because of me.

The man who technically saved my life came to visit today.

"Thank you. I don't know how I would've lived without her." "You're welcome, I'm just glad she'll live."

He left, and so did Draco.

I was alone yet again.

I hated being alone.

I wish I could open my eyes. Then I could see them. But I can't.

My muscles don't want to volunteer.

I hear the door open, and footsteps walk in. I hear a choked sob. "Oh my God. What has happened to you?"

Sasha. She began crying. "You were my best friend. Why didn't I make an effort to contact you? To see if everything was okay?" She cries even more. I want to cry with her.

She stops crying and sniffles. "Why am I such a bad friend? Why?" She takes my hand and holds it like a lifeline. "I can't loose you, not like I lost my parents."

I try to hold her hand, and succeed with a loose grip.

She cries even more.

I try to make a sound, anything.

I make a soft groan.

She instantly perks up.

"Kate?"

"S---a--sh---a."

She quickly moves the hand I was holding and pushes something.

Someone rushes in.

"Dr. Dean! She said my name!"

"That's progress. She recognizes you."

OF COURSE I DO! SHE'S BEEN MY BEST FRIEND SINCE WE MET!

"Her heart rate has returned to the normal rate of a healthy person. She might be able to wake up next week if she progresses this fast."

Sasha cries. "Kate, we all miss you. Please come back to us."

Her hand moves back to mine, holding it firmly.

I try to move my thumb across her knuckles. I make it to the second when another person enters the room.

"Oh. My. God." This was a new voice. I'd never heard it.

"I never thought that the first time I'd meet your roommate would be in the hospital, Sasha."

"Me neither Olivia. Me neither."

The doctor seemed to have left.

"This is Kate, Olivia. Kate, this is Olivia." I tapped her palm with my index finger. She smiled. "Kate says hello."

I smiled internally. Though I couldn't see her, I knew she was smiling. Sahsa was smiling.

Later that day, they left. And my mom came in. "Kate, today so many good things happened. Sasha said you talked. Today my friend's daughter graduated from high school. Grandma said she'd come down to see you. She still loves you." I let out a choked noise from my throat, like a sob.

I wanted to cry.

My grandma, the one who supported me all the way, was willing to come see me.

My sweet old grandma Willis.

My mom moved a piece of hair from my face. "I love you, Kate. My sweet baby girl."

She left. And I wanted to cry.

And scream.

I wanted to wake up.

Because I don't like the idea of eternal sleep anymore.

I hate it.

I really, really do.

I want to go back to living.

I want to play my guitar.

I want to snuggle with my boyfriend.

I want to hug my mom.

I want to binge Netflix with Sasha and Bryce, no matter how much the act like a couple.

I want to go to Mike's wedding.

I want to go home.

I want to walk.

I want to talk.

I want to swim.

I want to sing.

I want to drive.

I want to rise up like that one Imagine Dragons song.

I want to make music videos with Sasha again.

I want to be funny.

I want to have fun.

I want

To be alive.

I want to pet my dog.

I want to play with him.

I want to go to conventions as my cosplay characters with Mike.

I want to threaten Bryce again.

I want to live again, like I should.

Please.

Just grant me that.

Even if I only get to do it once.

Please.

I can't do this to them now. I need to show them I'm alive.

I need to open my eyes.

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