undercover heart [J.M]

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Jason

Why the hell did I do that to her!? She probably hates my gut now. Oh I'm such an idiot. I never should've touched the drugs in the beginning. I wasn't high anymore, thank god for that. But Amy was probably mad at me. Why the hell did I care!? I'm Jason McCann, most people hate me. So why the hell did I care what she thought of me? Why the hell did I even kiss her!? Oh god no! I-I'm not in love, am I?

Amaryllis

I felt the hot water hit my exposed body. My whole body relaxed at once and I begun washing my body.

....

I put a towel around my body. Jason was probably in the basement. So I didn't have to worry about him right now. I walked towards the walk in closet. No one was in the room. When I was in the walk in closet I took of the towel and begun to search for the right outfit. I put one on the bed. Sometimes I just like to choose between different outfits. I took some new clothes and threw them on the bed. Then I turned around towards the walk in closet. That's when I saw him. Jason had just entered the room. He starred lustful at my exposed body. I immediately ran into the closet.

-What the hell Jason!!! I yelled angrily.

-Sorry! I didn't know you were getting changed all naked! He yelled back.

-Don't you know how to knock!?

-It's my bedroom to you know. Why would I knock?

I sighed annoyed and picked up my towel to once again wrap it around my body. Then I walked out to the two outfits I had to choose between.

-Hey I wanted to um....apologise for earlier today. You know when I forced you to leave school and all that. Um...I wasn't myself and I'm sorry.

-It's fine, I sighed and found it very hard to choose between my outfits. "Hey Jason!"

-What? he asked and walked up to me.

-Witch one? I asked.

-That one, Jason said and pointed at an outfit.

-Then I take this, I said and took the other outfit to get changed in the bathroom.

Then I walked back into the bedroom where Jason was talking on his phone. I tried to listened. Maybe it could get me some new information.

-Yeah I know.....yes....Seriously dude!?....Golden swan bank 37th street....yeah....Okay...bye, Jason said.

I took a few steps back so it would look like I just got out from the bathroom.

-Who were you talking to? I asked.

-Just a gang member. We're going to rob a bank next week. Wanna join?

-Yeah sure! When?

-Wednesday 9pm.

-Okay. Is it anything I should know about the bank? I asked.

-They have very high security. That's all.

-Okay, I said and was about to leave the room.

-Hey Amy! About earlier. You said that you wanted to go to school because it makes you feel normal. Why would you wanna be normal?

I sighed. Maybe I should tell him, he's kinda my friend plus it's good for the mission if he trusts me. I turned around and walked over to the bed where I sat down right next to Jason.

-Well....I didn't choose this life. Honestly I hate it.

-Why? it's so much fun!

-You choose to do this right? I asked.

-Well kinda.

-I was forced....by my dad. He threatened the life of my best friend if I didn't sell drugs for him. So I obeyed. Years later I had turned into a drug addict. My dad didn't like that I took some of his goods. S-so h-he.....you know what? forget it! I said and stood up feeling the a single tear stream down my cheek.

Jason grabbed my hand but I didn't wanna turn around to face him. No one was allowed to see me weak.

-I know how hard it can be talking about your past. But I'm here if you need me.

-I don't need anyone, I said and left the room.

I knew that mr. Cappo owned the golden swan bank. Better tell him about this. So I could get out of this shit hole. All though I had been getting along with everyone. Harry was that guy who could crack a joke at anytime. Nail was the honest one. He was that guy you just knew you could trust. Liam was that idiot friend who always were there but also always got drunk and made stupid decisions. Louis and I had a rough start. But now were friendly. He was a good sparring partner. He didn't hold back just because I was a girl. Alex was like Zayn, a big brother who looked out for me. Jason he's....well....
Jason. I knew all the guys had girlfriends....well except for Zayn, Louis and Jason. I haven't met the guys girlfriends yet. To be honest I don't feel like meeting them. Getting attached to the guys is enough. I really needed the money so I could pay of my debt to mr. Cappo. Witch meant I couldn't just quit his gang. He always threatens to kill him. But I know he's stubborn and wants his money back. So if I don't do anything stupid he staysbalive. I had about
50 000 dollars left to pay him. The money I get from him from making money I give back mostly. So the debt one day will be paid.

-You don't look to happy and shouldn't you be at school? Someone asked.

I looked up to see Alex. He was wearing jeans and a hoodie.

-Well Jason was high earlier and kinda forced me to skip a bit of school. And I guess you know how he is when he's high.

-He forced you from school? Oh well he is Jason Mchigh. I apo....

-He already done that and I'm fine, I sighed and tried to walk into the training room.

But Alex stopped me. He looked me straight in the eyes.

-This isn't just about Jason forcing you from school, is it?

-Don't

-Don't what?

-Don't care about me. I haven't been here for long. How could all you guys just trust me immediately?

-Now you're acting like when you first came here. C'mon what's wrong. You can tell me. I'm right here.

-I don't need anyone to talk to. I'm perfectly fine, I said angrily and walked into the training room.

I didn't care that I wasn't wearing work out clothes. Right now I needed to punch something.