I was once just wrong. Nothing about me was right.
I lied and cheated and treated people like crap. I was manipulative and unreasonable and just dumb and unkind. I was selfish and controlling.
It took losing certain people i cared for so much to finally turn myself around!
Now i can't say I'm the best or anything like that but I try my best. I try to be honest and loving and I restrict myself enough to not be controlling. I give what I can and i listen and let live. I still have my issues but I know I do everything I can to treat people right now.
Is that what you all want? Don't you want somebody who is kind and caring? Who puts on the effort to tell you they care even if you don't talk a lot, to put in the kindness and say they're there even if you get really, REALLY low???
That's what I'd want; somebody who shows their heart and makes me feel like I matter to somebody for real.
Then why on Earth do people push me away??? Why do they leave me and most times without a word? No reason... Nothing to help me better myself.
Why on Earth did Kiley say I'm REALLY nice, TOO nice, and that we can't be friends because it's not right!? I put in so much effort to turn myself around and since then all everyone does is make me feel worse! They make me feel like i did the wrong thing doling my best to be better!
What do you want??? Kindness or rudeness??? What did i do??? Did I turn myself around only to be met by even more hatred??? Why are you breaking my heart...when I show it to you...get me at my most vulnerable and drive a dagger right through it!
Fine.
Run, but i hope the demons you're seeking devour you or at least scare you right back on track! Like they did me.
