Black Rose Red Blood (Completed)

Chapter 22- Hopeless

Charlottes P.O.V

8 weeks later

I cried just cried. I was sitting on my baby's floor and I cried just cried. Why? Because of my body. My Soul. Mainly my heart.

10 minutes earlier

I pulled a funny face as Jessica flew into laughter, CJ just stared at us starstruck.
I chuckled.

"Go put on your clothes and wash your hands and face then daddy will take you out  Tyrone sort out CJ for me babe" I smiled as he wrapped his arms around me.

I kissed his nose to which he scrunched up his face. We smiled I was happy. Things after the hospital incident was a little rough. People stepped on eggshell's always taking my bags and my child to do things that I am very much capable to do.

I sighed at the memory of earlier.

I walked down the stairs with CJ on my hip. We reached the bottom and I pulled a face at him to which he laughed as we headed to the kitchen Max ran out and tried to take him out of my arms.

"Max what the heck!" I yelled as we try and reduce swearing around CJ.

"Pass him hear I will deal with him go put your feet up" he responded.

I shook my head and placed CJ into his play pen.

"The next one of you who takes my baby out of my arms because I need to rest or ! I am not capable to do shit be prepared because I will kill you!!! I'm not injured and hurt I'm perfectly fine !" I yelled as plates fell to the floor and the tv stopped.

"Char calm" Tyrone spoke.

"Do not tell me to calm unless you want my fist in your face!" I screamed loudly. My chest felt tight and I was breathing heavily. I rolled my eyes and stormed to my room.

My body relaxed at the thought of me finally being okay and happy and healthy for the children's sake. I smiled as I begun to clean up the dishes washing each one separately before placing it into the dish washer.

Suddenly the phone rang, I grabbed a towle and dried my hands with the rough surface. As I reached for the phone I pressed the answer button and and placed it against my ear.

"Hello?" I spoke softly and confused.

"Mrs Brooks hello" the doctor pearked up.

"Doctor James how can I be of assistance ?" I frowned into the phone.

"I'm- I'm afraid I have some news" he said slowly.

"Which is?" I replied.

"I'm sorry Mrs Brooks but-"

10 minutes later

I sat there on the baby blue carpet. The softness corresing my body. My legs tickled as I brought them towards my body. I placed my arms around my knees as silent tears left my eyes and I cried just.... just cried.

I sat there begging pleading it to be wrong and that it's not for me. They rang the wrong person. Messed up the documents please say it's that oh how I beg that it's that.

My body shook from the tears that left me in was breathless and tired and weak. Mostly I was alone. They was out at the park so I was alone.

I pulled up jessicas blanket towards my face as I cuddled CJ's bear. I can't let this happen. I have thought this long. I have broken over and over. Why now out of everything why now.  I can't take it no more!

I started to scream and yell as tears tremembeled down my face plummeting towards the floor. I started to scream louder and louder until my voice broke and fell saw. Suddenly my phone pinged.

Baby boi- hey we are on our way home hope you are okay? ❤

More tears fell just seeing them words. Was it okay? Was I really okay? I don't think seeing of but it's fine he doesn't need to know yet.

Baby girl - I'm fine 💕

More tears fell as I wrote those words. I was upset broken and in pain. A lot of pain. I felt my heart clench as the downstairs door opened.

They were home. I wanted to run to the bathroom. I wanted to lock myself away for a few minutes. But I sat there pressed up against a wall with more tears falling I pulled up the blanket and teddy in my arms.

"Babe?" Ty yelled and I shook my head.

Please stay downstairs don't come up I don't need this not right now. Please stay downstairs.

Tyrone walked in. "Baby... what's up"

"I-I " I couldn't talk words could not form. I just broke and cried.

He shook his head and stroked away the tears that fell and fell. "Baby what's going on? What's wrong? Was someone here? Did they hurt you? Did you hurt yourself? Are you pregnant again?"

I chucked at his words and I shook my head at the words. "I" I took a deep breath. "I-my" I shook my head and pulled out a letter handing it to him.

"Dear Mrs Brooks," he started "I regret to inform you that we have found a chronically produced DNA problem starting in your lungs." His voice cracked "therefore we have concluded that the DNA problem that's occurred is a chronical lung and heart cancer to which has no cure. I'm sorry" he froze the letter fell to the floor and he seized up.

I looked to the floor. "Char what does this mean" his eyes burned into mine looking for a hope thinking it's a joke.

"I'm - I'm going to die Ty --- I'm - i'm going to pass away before I see my babies grow up and learn who I was. Am who I am. "