I spent the entire weekend at Jenna's house. I had to go home now though. I gave her a hug goodbye with the promise of keeping in touch before I headed home. It was a long drive but eventually I made it. I spent the rest of Sunday night alone in my room.
On Monday I woke up and headed to school. Instead of going over with Josh and our friends like I usually do I just sat on one of the benches in the hallway all by myself. I could see Josh from where I was, he looked horrible.
He looked tired and sad.. he mostly looked like he was drunk if I'm honest. He spotted me and came over. Oh yeah he's definitely drunk, I can smell it.
"Can we talk?" He asked, slurring slightly. I didn't reply, only looking away with my arms crossed. "Please?" He asked.
I clenched my jaw but didn't speak. He sighed and sat down next to me. "I'm an idoit." He whispered. I nodded in agreement.
"Are you mad at me?" He asked. I looked at him. He swallowed thickly. "I'mma take that as a yes." He said. I stood up and went to walk away but he grabbed my arm.
"Tyler please." He begged. "Look Josh, I'm not in the mood to talk to you right now. You lied to me.. I'm not doing this again." I said.
"Doing what again?" He asked. "Dating someone who just wants me for my body. Dating someone who doesn't really care about me.. dating someone who cheats because I'm not giving them something... I'm just not doing it anymore." I said.
He was quiet, staring at his feet. "I've done it too many times with too many assholes I'm not doing it again. If you want to man up and grow a pair and actually be a loyal boyfriend then come talk to me but until then don't bother me." I said before walking away.
Brendon was watching and when I walked by him he grabbed my arm and hugged me. I watched as Josh just turned and left the building. "He'll come around... You mean a lot more to him then you think." Brendon whispered.
The school day seemed to drag on and on but once it was over I immediately went home. I just need to relax so I went in the pool and just floated around for a while.
After that I watched some movies and then headed to bed. I only got an hour's sleep before Josh was texting me and calling me.
I sighed when he called for the hundrith time and just answered. "What?" I asked. "I-er-uh I'm uhmm. I wanna see you." He said. "Too bad not happening." I said.
"Why?" He asked. "Cause you're an ass." I said. "Please?" He asked. "No." I said before hanging up. He didn't give up though and kept calling until I just shut my phone off completely.
I tried to go back to sleep but I couldnt. So Instead I watched Netflix. I got bored of that after a while though and went for a drive.
I got myself some food and went on a little walk at the park before finally heading home. I was a few streets down from my house when I seen someone on the side of the road, stumbling as they walked. I sighed and pulled over once I realized I was Josh.
"Josh what are you doing?" I asked as I got out of the car and walked over to him he turned to look at me and I gasped. His nose was bleeding. "Jesus what happened?" I asked.
"Brendon got mad at me." He mumbled. I sighed and gently grabbed the sides of his face, inspecting it. "Alright come on.. I'll take you home." I said. "I don't wanna go home. Everyone's mad at me there too." He said.
"Well where do you wanna go?" I asked. "With you." He said. "well I'm mad at you too y'know." I said. He nodded and looked at his feet. "I'm sorry " he whispered.
"I don't have all night so I can either take you home or leave you here on the street." I said. "Home please." He whispered. I nodded and helped him to my car.
As we drove he leaned his head on the window and closed his eyes. "So why were you walking all alone out on the streets?" I asked. He shrugged. "We're you trying to come see me?" I asked. He gave a small nod.
"I told you no.. why'd you still come?" I asked. "Cause I love you." He whispered. "You can't love me that much if you cheat and lie to me." I said. "I love you alot. I love you more than I can even com-con-... What's the word?" He asked.
"Comprehend?" I asked. He nodded. "Yeah that." He said. I nodded. "do-.. do you love me?" He asked. I sighed. "I'm not sure." I whispered. He opened his eyes and looked at me.
".. how come you can't just forgive me? I said sorry." He said. "Cause you hurt me Josh." I said. "I'm sorry! Why are you being so stubborn?" He asked. "You're drunk we are not talking about this right now so either shut up or I'll pull over and you can walk." I said.
He immediately shut his mouth and laid back against the window. "Sorry." He whispered.
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