Hope- The Walking Dead Fanfiction

Ch 10- Just Keep Moving

~Beth~

I told him. I told him everything. Despite my plans to never tell him about it, and forget, my desperation for him to understand where I am coming from got to me.

He leaned in and gently kissed me, pulling back after a bit. It was passionate, but sweet. Not lustful.

I looked into his eyes, I could see his sadness, and his emotion practically dripping from him. He looked like he was about to explode. Suddenly, the feeling i got from him when he looked at me was only a memory, and now all I could feel from his is his emotions exploding.

He was a volcano waiting to explode.

A stick of dynamite waiting to be lit.

I looked outside, the sun was still shining, yet everything felt dark as Daryl exploded.

"I'm such a fucking asshole, why did I ever do that to you," he growled.

"Daryl it's fine. I promise, I'm okay now," I started but trailed off. He paced around the room, on edge.

"No Beth. I mean at the farm. Why did I ever kiss you. Why did I ever have sex with you? Why did I fall in love with you-"

"It's not like it's a bad thing!"

"No! You don't get it? When one of us dies, cuz you know it will happen, the one of us left is going to lose all hope. Does who knows what. You will start cutting again, maybe take it to the next level. I'll just be a lonely asshole who walks around, taking on packs of walkers until finally, I realize I can't take it on by myself and I get overwhelmed and..."

"STOP DARYL! You know that's not true, we can make it!"

"No! Don't you fucking get it? How long does it take for you to realize that this shit isn't important. Love only slows you down. Trying to act like everything is okay, when it ISNT. Rainbows, and Unicorns, and everything will be okay shit. We will live happily ever after, get married, have a couple kids. We will find Maggie and Glenn, they will have couple kids themselves! We will settle down with each other. Maybe find Rick and and Carl. And and... That's NOT HOW IT FUCKING WORKS," he yelled so loud.

"I never said that's how it works Daryl! If you don't have faith or hope, or don't give a shit about anything, than there is nothing to live for," I yelled I can hear the frustration and anger in my own voice.

"Exactly! Beth you are just a
Little girl, who doesn't understand what's going on. Like it's a game to you. You have had 2 boyfriends and didn't care when they died, thinking: HEY! I could just get another one. And it just distracted you from everything that was going on. You didn't worry about walkers, or food, or shelter. That was OUR job. We worked our asses off to feed you. And shelter you. When you just took care of a baby, and- and had a
Boyfriend. Thinking we could live happily ever after," he finished bitterly. I could hear him straining to hold back tears.

"Daryl I-"

"M-maybe I coulda done somethin'. I coulda shot him. Then we would still be at the prison and," he trailed off. Daryl Dixon was crying. It was something I thought I would never see. I got up to go hug him. I wrapped my arms around him from the back. His sobbing slowly stopped. I let go and looked at him.

"It ain't your fault. And ya know it doesn't matter if this works out or not... You know your gonna be the last one standing. And Daryl Dixon, you can deny it, but your gonna miss me when I am gone," I finished. I said it so softly and calmly compared to the previous conversation.

We were interrupted by banging at the door. "I got it," he muttered, getting up with his cross bow. I sighed. He finally exploded. And I don't know what will
Happen next. Will we leave... Or stay?
Will we keep moving, or settle down?

My thoughts were interrupted when Daryl came back, sitting across from me. "We should burn it down," the words flowed from my lips without a second thought. He nodded.

We enjoyed drenching the house in moonshine, occasionally splashing each other. Then standing outside. I took out my lighter, and Daryl held out a stack of cash. I lit it, and Daryl through it at the cabin.

Flames soon devoured the small cabin, in which I felt me and Daryl became closer in. We stood back admiring our work. I held up my middle finger to it, and heard Daryl chuckling besides me and joining. We stood there for awhile. We both dropped our arms when we noticed walkers, and we kept moving through the night.

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