Flights

Ten

"Hey it's good to hear your voice." Cam said on the other side of the line.

"I'm sorry you had to come by so many times. I should've seen you." I replied.

"Don't worry about it, Hay. I'm glad you called." 

I had missed Cameron's voice, I started feeling myself pushing him away, and I couldn't do that to anyone else, especially not him. I needed to trust that he wouldn't hurt me, or make me hurt myself. I just never wanted him to leave but I felt like if he did, I would never be myself. 

I spoke to Cameron for a few hours over the phone before he had to go to a meeting but we had planned to meet up the next day. As soon as he hung up I started answering other people. Mahogany had left a few texts letting me know she'd be around if I needed to talk.

Mahogany and I were never really that close. The first time I met her, I was extremely shy whereas she was outgoing and loud so I tended to stay out of her way; not in a hateful way, just because I knew she knew what she was doing and didn't want to get in the way - that was the last thing I ever wanted to do with anyone. 

Johnson was apologising on behalf of Jack; he had just been cheated on not long ago and told me that he was trying really hard not to hate Jack. I replied simply - telling him not to hate Jack and left it at that. Which left me with only Jack left to speak to. It had been a week and I still missed him. I was still so used to having him with me as much as possible. The texts were all long, all telling me how much he loved me and that he regretted it. It was full of sorrow, but no explanation. He hadn't even told me how many girls he had hooked up with. Whether it was a constant thing with one girl, or just a bunch of different girls here and there. I needed answers. I needed to know whether he had gained feelings for someone else or if he just used girls to satisfy him when I wasn't there. I resisted for an hour, but I needed to call him. I don't know whether it was because I wanted to hear his voice, or his explanation. But I started dialling.

"Hayley" His voice sounded ecstatic as he answered after two dial tones. "I'm- I, jus-, can"

"Jack." I started, and before he could answer, I continued. "How many girls? and why?" It was quiet on the other end, so I continued - now holding back the shake in my voice. "Why would you do this to me? To us? You spent eight months trying so hard to get me, I thought maybe, just maybe, he actually cared about me. But then, you throw it all away? Why? Was it, was it because I wasn't satisfying you? Was it because you just needed someone constantly getting on her knees for you when I was away? Was it that pathetic lust" I spat the word out "you oh so proudly sing about, in a song I thought was about me?" 

"It was one girl." He said sternly. "You think I'm an animal? That I just use girls?" 

"What the hell do you think you're doing turning this around on me? You know damn well that what you did was wrong. Your best friend got cheated on just the same, you know exactly how much that messed him up and you did the same to me, so don't you dare. Don't you dare turn this around. You are an animal Jack Gilinsky. You are a vile creature that deserves nothing. Not from me, not from that girl, not from anyone." I huffed loudly, I didnt want to hear anymore, but I needed to know. "Did she mean anything to you?" 

I heard him clear his throat quietly. "No." 

"You're lying."

"Then why ask. Hayley." He raised his voice. 

I didn't know how to respond, but I didn't owe him one. I didn't owe him anything.

"Goodbye Jack."

I hung up and slammed my phone down. Just as I did, the doorbell rang. No one else was home so I had to suck it up and answer it. 

"J-Jacob" I had never been more glad to see him. 

"Hey, sorry about this but you left your jacket in my car." He handed one of Jack's varisty jackets over.

I was speechless. I had subconciously worn Jack's jacket out. I was so used to it, I hadn't even though twice about it. I looked at the jacket then back up at Jacob. "I-" 

I grabbed the jacket and threw it on the bannister next to my front door. I still wasn't thinking straight from my call with Jack. I pulled Jacob in and closed the door. 

"What i-" I cut him off as I pulled him closer and kissed him. 

He didn't refuse - in fact it didn't take long at all for him to start kissing me back. He grabbed my hands that were grasping his face and pulled them to wrap them around his neck. He grabbed my butt and lifted me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and continued to kiss him passionately. I tugged at his hair as he gently bit my bottom lip. 

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Shock and adrenaline filled my body when I found myself in my bed with Jacob. It was spontaneous and I'm not sure why I did it. I wasn't even sure I liked Jacob, but what I was sure of was that we had the passion that was lacking in mine and Jack's relationship for the past few months. We laid together for a few hours afterwards and talked about everything. Everything apart from Jack. For a few hours, it felt like he was completely out of the picture. Until the doorbell rang and there were three knocks on the door.

Jack was the only one who ever knocked after ringing.

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