Flights

Twelve - Finale

"Hey you" Cameron said as he picked me up in his arms. 

"Hey Cam" I said as he put me back on the floor. 

We got into his car and Cameron drove up to a hill overlooking the city. 

"How are you feeling?" Cam asked as we sat on the hood of his car waiting for the sun to set. 

"I'm better" I looked down and stroked the car hood as a means of distraction. "You know, I'm kind of getting used to not having him with me 24/7 and whatnot"

"That's good, Hayley. That's really good." He smiled as he looked at me as I looked down at the hood. "His and Jack's new song is-"

"Yeah, it's-"

"Yeah" 

We were both pretty speechless about it, I knew he would be because he always knew how I'd feel towards anything that came my way.

"I have to tell you something Cameron" I said, gazing out towards the city.

"What is it?" He asked, looking at me

"I, uh" I started, "Jacob came over to my house... And uh," 

Cameron continued to stare, waiting.

"Well we kind of, you know" I shrugged, looking down at the hood. 

"You-" Cameron started, "Are you kidding me?" 

He slid off the hood and stood in front of you, "Are you kidding me right now?!" He exclaimed

"Why are you getting angry?!" I asked in shock

"One week!" He yelled, turning away, "One week and you already found someone else, that's unbelievable." 

"Wh-" I started, "Cameron it's not like that, it's not like I'm going to-"

"No, no you know what, here listen" He said, turning back to me. "I have been there for you. I have been there when Jack wasn't, I was here long before Jacob ever was - I have seen you at your worst and at your best and I have loved you through it all." 

"Cam-"

"No Hayley." He says sternly, "I have loved you. I loved you from the moment I first laid eyes on you. Do you know how we were?"

"I ju-"

"Hayley I was seven years old, and I already knew I was going to spend the rest of my life with you, one way or another. I put so much effort into being your best friend thinking, maybe one day she'll feel the way I do about her." He continued, "but you won't, will you? You never had and you never will love me the way I love you, you'll always find someone else."

"Cameron stop." I yelled, "You don't see it do you?" 

"What?" He spit bitterly

"You don't see that for years, I tried to distract myself from ever feeling that way about you, because you never once showed me that you even had the slightest fraction of any kind of intimate feelings for me?" I said, "You don't see that, when you introduced me to Jack, I went for it because I thought that's what you wanted? Because I thought you'd never see me that way?! No Cameron. You never did. I have loved you from the minute you spilled dirt all over my dress when I told you I hated it and didn't want to tell my mother. I have loved you through your ups and your downs, we have been through anything humanly possibly together, and I always knew we'd go through everything else until we died together. Cameron I have had dreams of growing old with you, having children, having a house. But never once, did you ever reciprocate those feelings. So don't act like you're up there on that high horse Cameron, I tried to push those feelings away because of you. Because no one would ever amount to you, I would never find someone like you." 

I took in a deep breath as tears start to form in my eyes. "You know" I started up again, "I think the break up with Jack hurt more because I knew I didn't love him the way I loved you, but then I found out that he didn't love me the way I thought he did. And it made it all so much more real - the fact that you'd never be mine." 

"Why didn't you just tell me?" Cameron asked

"Why didn't you tell me?!" I exclaimed.

Cameron sat back down beside me on the car hood. "I just never thought it was a possibility." 

"Me neither" I said, looking at him. 

It was quiet for a what felt like an eternity as we stared at each other, on the top of a hill, overlooking the city. It was quiet - but not the kind of quiet that made people uncomfortable. It was the kind of quiet you wanted to last forever, until Cameron started to lean in, grabbing the side of my neck - pushing my hair out of the way. He hovered close to my lips for a moment - I knew he was taking the moment in, the same way I was, and soon enough, he leaned in further - planting his lips firmly on mine. A huge wave of relief rushed through my body as I felt the one person's kiss I thought I never would. 

There were a lot of things I didn't know in that moment. I didn't know what would happen with Jacob - I didn't know if I'd ever speak to Jack again, and I didn't know what would happen between my best friend and I. But nothing mattered in that moment - nothing but the way I was feeling about him, and the way I felt I always would.