A Friend Unchosen by Britaney Lamorena

Prolouge

Hi guys!
This is a story about the most complicated things, A teenage girl could possibly experience in life in this cruel world.

it's based on my true story and experience I also won't be using real names of the characters in this story so all names in this story are fiction.

This story is about the truth about my past year and about the person who meant the world and happiness to me who suddenly sacrificed herself for me which I couldn't understand and shattered me whole.

My Best friend or should I call an ex-best friend now? slowly the love I gave to that person little by little changed into hatred and misery which resulted in me having more things I regret, I loved my best friend for all I had and decided to give my everything. imagine turning all that love to hatred? it was the most painful thing I could've done to her and myself I never wanted revenge nor hurt her in any way but the fact that she chose to give up on me really hits and left my heart on the floor. day by day I ask why? why wasn't I enough? how could she? how could she just leave me like I didn't matter? the thought that I'm not as special to her as she is special to me it killed me on the inside. I had the most toxic mind after that thinking that nothing else matters if the person who meant the world already left.

I couldn't move on and just pretended none of that happened that was toxic but it was the only way I could cope with everything I could never move on I could never forget her like how could I? I loved her genuinely. so much. I found happiness together with her. I planned my future with her, to be by her side when she gets married when she has kids, and all those shattered in just a chat cause of my actions? oh, you have no idea the regret I feel.

being bitter toward anything that reminds me of her or her existence itself was toxic I loved and it hated at the same time how could I hate her? she was the most angelic person I met. beautiful kind and kinda shy but she has the courage and takes care of others. how could hate her? but I'm not as kind as her, to be honest, I'm the complete opposite of her I'm reckless confident and would do anything to protect her I'd always stand up for her when she isn't there she was my happiness and weakness.

It took a lot of time to be normal again and have some friends since I completely block everyone out I was skipping classes and never took lessons seriously I gave up on myself and my life.

Slowly I finally opened up to a few friends whom I thought I would never be friends with and little by little they helped me heal and be back with sanity and be normal again.

Later that school year my best friend and I had closure to end these bitter memories and I finally have the courage why she left even if its an excuse I wanted to know the reason why I was unchosen. what could've she chosen to give up on me?

A reason I never thought could've caused all of this I never thought of her leaving me was selfishness I was so naive I was dumbfounded when I found out because she did it for me at first I thought it was bullshit but later on I realize it was wholesome.....

author note:

I' will also be writing some of what's happening in my present life
I'll only be writing when I have the time to do so :)