A Friend Unchosen by Britaney Lamorena

Season 2: Chapter 1: Hell of A change

I finally transferred to a new school...

I rebuild myself...

and start a new life...

I'm now studying at a different academy...

I did my best to adjust here, everyone here didn't know a toxic world exists outside it was almost a miracle how innocent and childish the students are but I really liked the positive energy...

The school and its environment helped me change, it helped me heal to create some pleasant memories that would make me happy with myself and the environment.

Its currently already December I met a lot of people already and a lot of new friends...

Here I am trying so hard to be proud of myself...

Before I transferred to this school a friend of mine, Min actually used to study here back in elementary she told me how the system and how the environment there works...

and she told me to stay away from one specific person...

A girl named Lin...

Min told me that she's a fake and toxic girl and that I should stay away from it seem Min has some history with this girl Lin and I just simply agreed to her warnings...

I actually stalked the girl Min was telling me about so I knew what she looks like so that I could avoid her.

When the first day started she was the first person I was conscious of ...

I didn't want to do anything connected to her...

when I was introducing myself in front of the class someone just randomly asked me when's my birthday?

I answered by reflex and said my birthday was on January 4th...

and everyone gasped and said I had the same birthday as Lin.

I was dumbfounded like a coincidence?

On the second day of school, at recess time I was gonna buy my lunch at the canteen all the girls of the same class was only allowed to sit at one table only when I stood up Lin casually said she was coming with me cause she was gonna buy something...

I simply agreed...

As long I got to know her, the more I realized that she isn't as Min described she is actually...

I didn't know if befriending her was a good or bad idea...

so I just went with the flow but never did the first move...

I don't know how but we suddenly became close friends and became best friends it's weird ya I know it just happened...

I never I could be on terms with her but now she's the closest friend I've got in this school, she's one of those people I thought I would never be close with...

I didn't realize after leaving Liz I have build up walls around myself and started having trust issues I could still get along with everyone but I couldn't open up with my life...

I was scared...

I don't want to treat anyone as special as Liz ever again..

once was enough...

my attitude and my pride went high, that I had problems whenever I have a fight with Lin.

I and Lin would have a pointless argument that would result in ignoring each other that results in us both hurting each other.

Then by October I started having an issue, I was feeling my toxic habit of jealousy, is tarted overthinking that she isn't paying attention to me as much as before now...

But I've had a bad history with this jealousy of mine, and kept it to myself...

Whenever I felt jealous I would simply avoid Lin for the time being but the longer I keep getting jealous the more I avoid her and it hurts me it is like I'm torturing myself but I could easily pretend everything fine when she talks to me...

But sometimes I would sulk cause it hurt my feelings at the thought that she doesn't notice that...

I'm not fine...

and it's because of her.....

and that she doesn't all those things she does that make sad...

I don't know if she realized sometimes she's leaving me out...

sometimes she's leaving me behind...

sometimes she forgets about me...

I never had the guts to tell her cause I'm afraid that this jealousy of mine would result in losing someone again and I would give up on myself all over again...

One day she really hurts my feelings and I have decided to sulk big time... we suddenly had a fight and I decided to ignore her and she decided to ignore me too.

I was the one sulking and she had the nerve to sulk too, she didn't even comfort me...

she wouldn't even fix outfight or at least comfort me...

there was no progress nothing was happening I simply gave up and stopped avoiding her so now I'm just waiting for her to make the first move but she stills ignores me and does nothing to fix the situation...

I thought came to mind...

does she really care?

for her it must be ok if I ignore her for the rest of my life the thought simply made me more pissed.