Fake love / SowJin

Fake love 1

Dear Sojung,

How are you?Im sure you feel betrayed,sad and mixed emotion few years ago right?Im sorry that I made you feel that way.

Im sorry that you're just a bet.Blame it on me,Namjoon made me to make you fall in love with me in less than 6 months,date you then break your heart.

People makes everything sounds simple.I thought breaking up with you is easy,but I think I need to think twice about it.I regret it ,I regret every single thing.I regret it right now.

I made you fell in love with me and gave you so much hope.It makes you think that I like you infact that I dont even have a feelings towards you.Yes,the truth hurt that time.But Im on a bet with one of my bestfriend and you know how I hate losing right?

Now,I dont like the feeling of losing but I hate it now.You wanna know why?its because I lost you already.Thats the biggest mistake I ever done.

The other biggest mistake I've done towards you was giving you high hopes and giving you fake love.I was immature that time.

The reason why I write this letter is because I saw you last night when I pass by down a convenience store with my friends.

I saw you eating ramen with one of your friend by the stool.You were tying your hair so naturally.I swear I stopped in my track when I saw you,but when I remember what I did to you during our highschool years I decided to walk pass the store.I was to embarrassed to look at you and my reflection in the mirror.My reflection makes me remember how stupid I am back then.

You seem to be okay now,and you look fine.Scratch it,you look beautiful.You're much more beautiful now and you've grown much taller.I remember when we're having our date at the park,your at the same height as my chest area.You look small that time,you were smilling at me and I smile back at you but it was fake it was all fake.

I should be ashame of myself.

Was your everything,
Kim SeokJin