Fake love / SowJin

Fake Love 11

Dear Jin,

Hi its me Sojung,I hope your living a great life up there.I read all of your letters one by one,I cant help but to tear up reading it.

I hate myself for feeling this way for you too.You are not the only one who's in pain,yes you maybe think Im happy and forgot about you before I'm married,but your wrong.

When I saw you again,I panicked and was about to run away but I stay.I stay because I hope that theres a second chance for me to be with you.

But it looks like you dont want to be with me anymore,how it hurt my heart that time.Damn!

After our break up,you didnt even left my head a bit.I love you that much that I think Im starting to get crazy.I remember our memories and all,Im depressed everyday.

But it breaks my heart more when I told myself that you just gave me fake love and hope while I gave you true love.

How stupid.

After that I gave up,I gave up having high hopes for you to be with me again.

I met Youngmin and we've been friends around 3 months or so.Every-time we meet each other on a friendly date my heart beat fast for him.

I now know that I moved on from you already,I smile brightly whenever Im with him,the smile that I used to make whenever Im with you.

To be honest,I still have feelings for you but Im starting to fade up already.Its not like you notice me anyway.

After knowing each other and go out with each other frequently he asked me to be his girlfriend and I agreed.

In the end who knew we marry each other,you attend to our wedding and I cant help but to look at you.You look sad and I just put a smile on my face.

I want to ask you 'whats wrong' or 'are you okay?' but fate wants me to be with Youngmin so I stay.

I was about to walked towards you asking how's your day,but you just walked away quickly going back home not noticing my presence behind you.

It shocked me the most when I knew you have a tumor disease,Im sorry I cant spend time with you.

If I knew that you like me I would just walk towards you that time and whisper into your ears that I like you to.

But I was to late,the both of us are late to confess to each other.The both of us are scared to give each other a second chance because we know each other very well.In our relationship there will always be the one who will give the person 'fake love and hope'

I forgive you Jin with all my heart and I hope you can forgive me too for acting like a crap and all.

Farewell Kim SeokJin:)I loved you who love me.

Your Everything,
Im Sojung

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Sojung put the folded letter nicely ontop of Jin's grave.She smile warmly looking at the stone and sigh loudly.

Youngmin placed the flowers ontop of Jin's grave and looked at his wife,he felt relieved that she's okay now.

He dont want to be rude to be mad at what Sojung write in the letter instead he support it fully.

"lets go now Youngmin"Sojung said intertwining her fingers with Youngmin's.

The both of them walked away from the graveyard with much emotions.But in the end they both know how much Jin matters in Sojung's life even though she deosnt want to admit it.

Sojung will forever remember Jin the boy who break and heal some of her scar.

END