Still in the closet.

Not a secret anymore...

After yesterday"s classes when Anestasia came to the room without speaking a word we just started to make out intensely and slept off after we got tired...And today when i woke up around 6;45 brush my teeth off,took a quick shower and me and Anestasia head to eat breakfast we found a crowd of students around the wall magazine in the way to canteen so we just got there and planned to check out what was all that about but as soon as we got there all the students started staring at us as if we had done something big but we both were confused and approached towards the wall magazine we found it was full of our pictures,of us making out, of us half dressed ,all of us..as soon as i saw the images i just remembered we forgot to close the door yesterday night cause we both were busy making out and i was screaming internally for i had done a horrible mistake then  when maybe crazy jerk got all the pictures out ...i just burst down to tears ,i was screaming i was shaking,quaking i was crying i just fell off the floor when Anaestasia just scrapped and took all the pictures out of the wall and tear them apart and hold on strong to me ,we were broken laying on the ground while a bunch of stranger just surrounded us and took pictures of us but then the guys ;Jughead,Ned,tall man came and scared the crowed away while we got into our room sobbing ,crying ,hurting ourselves on the way...

As soon as we got to the room we started crying together,sobbing,holding our hands, hugging,cause we did not deserved all that we had been publicly shamed and what the anonymyous person did to us was not right at all and as soon as i was sobbing and tried to reject a call from my old friend cause they could not hear or see me on this way i saw our picture was all over the "H app" which was a app for the students of our high school to connect to each other anonymously we screamed and cried more we sobbed we were just broken all over both inside and outside we were just not able to comfort each other and neither of us were able to stop crying so we skipped the classes,lunch ,dinner for today cause we were so broken,crushed,crumbled we were not able to look decent and were far away from being able to survive the day. And after a long silence Aneastesia finally spoke and said ,"You still dream about the people lost in your memory fabricated by your nostalgia and romanticized by your broken heart" it was from a book ...but i was never shaken by anyone's words but today these words all came to sense and broke me more and more lets say its just hard to express anything rn cause we are expressionless but we swore that night that we were gonna bring that one person who was all behind this.