So lets go like 6/7 months back when i was going through hell and stuff ,nothing was sorted in my days,grades were decreasing rapidly,people left me; like the friends you know, i stopped socializing and my best friend for then was internet cause i could find people just like me dark,deep filled within their own sorrows.
Well except the depressing part i was felling a bit different with who i was and what were my choices then ....i was having strange dreams about people like you know generally where i would be making out with anyone like it didn't matter funny right ? And about that all i felt was "strange" then. So like i am not so attractive person so online dating was my freeland maybe cause it didn't matter if you get rejected online anyway its just the care factor is less and you just don't get as judged as you are in real life.
So like always i set up my profile and chat up with some people but then was a different day cause i just was there to talk to people to know who i really was. I was really confused and stuff and as i was talking to the people i realized i might be "Bi curious" and then one day i went on a date with a girl i met there and we spend some crazy good time together and had fun it was going all well until one day she decided not to respond to my texts anymore or lets say she ghosted me and from then we never heard from both of us. So like again i had to move on and after a month or so i went on a date with a guy that was extremely fun too. And that day i realized something i was actually "Bi" i felt a lil good cause now from my strange dreams to choices everything came to a direction, right.But from that day a irrational fear began with myself to get adjusted in the society ,to be respected without having any sort of fear,and it was slowly eating me up cause my small town had the people with very conservative mindsets and my family a follower of Hindu religion. So lets say that night got everything sorted for me but i was confused af and had to cover myself in layers of lies just to protect myself as if i did a sin which i didn't. And from the next day i was just a person with two different identities just to be able to survive...!!!
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Still in the closet.
Fiction généralefreedom ˈfriːdəm/Submit noun 1. the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants Freedom,democracy,independence,openness,naturalness,flexibility,space are the terms i am still looking to find as a individual more like getting it. Every once i...
