All I want.

04

04- you're all I need.
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"Stay with me..because you're all I need.."
-Sam Smith

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"Addi you're the only person besides that baby boy asleep that I love"
"You can't love me, Olly, you'll get hurt."
"I don't care"
"I do because I love you too"
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Olly and I stayed up all night talking about our feelings, I still haven't told him how scared I am
Of love. I left him after he fell asleep. I got up and gathered my things and left. I didn't know exactly why, but I had a feeling it was the best thing I could've done. Oliver can't be in love with me, I don't want him to get hurt he's too pure to be hurt, broken hearted even. I left a note and said that I needed time. I hope he understands. Love isn't a thing you play with, I hope that me leaving will make him realize I'm not the one. I find my way to the beach just as the sun rises. I sit there on the edge of the cliff my feet dangling off the edge. I turn when I hear something behind me. I see Oliver walking holding a baby seat and a guitar. He smiles through his tear-stained cheeks. I stand up and face him my back to the ocean my heels just an inch from the edge. He sets the baby down and sits on a rock nearby, And he begins strumming on his guitar and singing.
"All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door
'Cause if I could see your face once more
I could die as a happy man I'm sure
When you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside
I lay in tears in bed all night
Alone without you by my side
But If you loved me
Why did you leave me
Take my body
Take my body
All I want is
All I need is
To find somebody
I'll find somebody
Ooh oh
Ooh oh
Ooh oh
Ooh oh
'Cause you brought out the best of me
A part of me I've never seen"
Before he can continue I'm already in tears. He doesn't understand the pain love causes he doesn't understand. Without thinking I turn to face the choppy water of the dark blue ocean. "Don't do it"
He whispers putting his guitar down. "Please don't leave me"
"I'm sorry" I whisper before I move closer preparing myself to jump. Before I can even jump off Oliver grabs my wrist pulling me far from the edge wrapping his arms around me protectively as I sob into his chest. "I don't want to hurt you" I sobbed hugging him tight taking in his calming scent of cashmere. "Please don't ever be afraid to hurt me please don't ever be afraid to tell me your feelings, I'm so in love with you and I want to be with you we are meant to be why can you see that!?" Oliver cry's his face in my hair. "I don't know, I love you Oliver I just don't want to hurt you" he pulls away from me at this. "Please, Please don't leave me." He says his eyes dark and foggy with ambition and sadness. "I-i promise I won't leave you again, I'm in love with you Oliver," I say putting my delicate hands on his hollow cheeks.
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At our cars, I look over at Oliver holding Matt's seat with one hand and opening the door. "I could take him for a night if you'd like, I have a playpen bed thing from when my sisters baby used to come. "You'd really take him for me?"
"Of course, darling," I say taking the seat from Oliver's arms.
"Can we have a sleepover at your house Tomorrow night since my power is getting turned off tonight?"
"Your power is getting turned off!?"
"Yea, I don't exactly have a job yet I'm still in college"
"Tomorrow we can pack your things and move you in with me I have extra bedrooms" I smile
"Really?"
"It's my dad's old house it's paid for and the bills are nothing literally because my dad pays them"
"Wow okay, see you tomorrow with Matt in one piece" he jokes
"Yes yes bye, I wave to him as I put Matt's seat into the car and lock it in place.
"I love you addi"
"I love you too Oliver"
And at that we drive our separate ways, to separate places when our hearts wanted us to stay together.
At my house, I bring Matt in and leave his car seat in my car because it's heavy. I carry him in and I lay him in the playpen my sister had at my house for her baby. I never knew I'd be taking care of a baby at my age. I did it because I love Oliver and he needs a break from the craziness. I decide
To write another part in my book.
'Love, what is love? The definition of love is an intense feeling of deep affection. How odd that that's is the first definition. It doesn't say 'when a man/woman feel deeply affectionate' therefore love isn't just with a person. It's with objects, animals, oddly enough food. Oliver knew that he was in love with her. He knew he felt a deep affection that she was trying to hide. Gabby loved him deeply in her heart but, she ran away as soon as the feelings arose from her heart to her mouth. "I love you" he had said his eyes gleaming. "You can't love me, you'll get hurt," she said a tear falling upon her cheek. "I don't care" he stated wiping it away. "I do because I love you too"'
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