All I want.

06

06-kiss
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"Gabbi loved Oliver but didn't want to admit it, her dreams became stronger as the days went by, and the nights got longer. Phone conversation usually happened often between Oliver and Gabbi but mostly it consisted of sleeping on the phone being comforted by the presence of one another close but not too close to scare Gabbi. Oliver loved the way she would hum herself to sleep, in the process also making him become tired. He wanted to be with her but he just had to figure out how."

After writing that I smiled at my journal and placed it next to my bed and slowly walked down the stairs carefully and quietly. As far as I knew Oliver and mat were still sleeping.

I slipped on my shoes and grabbed my keys and went out the door heading to pick up lane from
His house for him to come over and hang out with me and formally meet Oliver, who he has literally been dying to meet.

Once I get lane we blare music through my car and scream the lyrics to our favorite songs. I loved this time with him, the times we didn't care what the world thought we were just going to be us, Lane and Addi.

When we walked into the house Oliver was on the couch with Matt feeding him and rocking him. As soon as he saw Lane his face twisted in confusion and jealousy sparked in his eyes.

"Good morning Olly" I chirped
"Morning, love." He said looking down at Matt.

"This is my friend lane and he has Ben dying to meet you, lane please be civil and don't embarrass me" I cringed.

"Oh my gosh he is so much hotter than the pictures you drew," lane said with his mouth wide open.

"You'll catch flies" I tsked closing his mouth for him.

Olly visually relaxes when he realized lane was gay, I laughed at the thought of him being jealous over lane.

After a while of chatting and a whole movie lane decided to call a ride and go home, so it would just be me Olly and the baby.

After a while of sitting in silence, Olly spoke: "I thought you were bringing in your boyfriend." He said worryingly.

"No Olly I brought in my gay, best friend" I laughed.

"Addi?"

"Yes?"
"Will you please let me in?"

I was silent at this and thought my face knitted in confusion.

"Olly I don't know how," I stated honestly.

"Tell me your past tell me how you feel tell me about you" he exclaimed.

"ok."

"Ok"

"My birthday is August 18th, I am in college for writing, I love the beach and I don't really have family, I love babies and I live documenting the good times to overcome the bad, I love fall and I love green tea lattes from the coffee shop on the corner that's lanes family owns. Love scares me, that's why I wanted to kill myself. I dreamt about you for the longest time and I fell for you and I'm scared that I am falling for you now and I'm scared of loving you and I'm scared I'm doing something wrong I-"

Oliver cut me off my leaning in, only inches from my face I could feel his cool breath against my cheeks. He glanced down at my lips then back up to my eyes.
"Addi, can I kiss you?"
"Do you want to Oliver?"
"yes I do"
"Ok"

At that, he leaned in closing the space between us and making our lips meet and my heart shutter at the sudden electric pulse going through my body.

Oliver and I just kissed. And it was the best thing ever.
He was something I never knew I needed.