Why Me? (BoyxBoy)

New Story

ITS MY BIRTHDAY (June 12) so I'm publishing a new book like I do practically almost every birthday, it's called Piercing Eyes so enjoy!

Preview:

"Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad."
~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, Hyperion
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It's not on my mind 24/7.

In these three years, I haven't thought about it every second of everyday. But it affects me in ways I can't describe.

I can't be in crowded rooms anymore for the fear of it.

I can't be alone with a man anymore.

I can't be who I want to be in fear of attracting predators.

I live in constant fear even though I know he's dead.

I can't even think about getting intimate with somebody without having a panic attack.

It's senior year in high school and I'm not ready.

I don't want to live on my own in college. I don't want to not have a reason to leave my room. I don't want to face the world in fear it may happen again.

But then I met him.

And I'm scared.

I'm scared for my life that I may ruin this. I don't want to ruin this at all.

I'm scared that he'll turn into him.

I'm scared I'll turn into him.

I'm a boy so I'm half way there.

I'm scared that me, Cole Day, will screw this up. I don't want to be a mess anymore. But I can't help it.

I don't want to have this constant fear in my heart every time somebody walks past me.

I don't want to fear what my parents will say if I were to tell them.

What anybody will say.

I'm scared that if I open my mouth, everything that happen will become real.

I'm scared.

But I love him and I'm not sure if I'm ready to let him go.

I don't want to let Oscar go.

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There's also my newest story:

Claimed by Him

And

Stained Pearl

And Falling with Caution

Please check it out! Thank you!