Anne

Chapter 13

Lilly's POV

I walk down the stairs to make sure John is gone but I guess Mother left to go kill or something that bitch. I feel horrible I can't believe John caught me cutting myself. "Lilly?" James mumbles from up the stairs he has a red tear stained face.

"Yes?" I ask.

"Are you okay?" He mumbles.

"I'm fine." I growl.

"No your not!" He yells.

"You keep on thinking you can save me!" I scream.

"Say what you want but your not going to win this time, we love you we need you back!" He screams back. I can't believe he said.

"I can't shake the taste of blood out of my mouth!" I scream. I grab my knife which is laying on the couch I hear James running down the stairs.

"Just stay down!" I hiss at him "it'll finally be all over!" I laugh starting to put the knife to my neck

"No!" James screams grabbing my knife "I can't bare to think about living without you!" he screams throwing the knife into the wall. What the hell is he doing!

"Why can't I just end everything!" I scream trying to shake from his grip. He pushes me to the couch.

"It's never going to be over!" He yells at me trying to fight off tears.

"We can't start our lives all over! she ruined it!" I scream at him.

"You don't know what you want." He mumbles "you'll need her one day, mother loves you!" He starts to scream. "Do you remember the dream you told me? The dream where you were fighting off demons well can't you do that now?" He starts to mumble. I completely forgot about that dream, I was all alone in the cabin but fire started shooting up from the walls and the floor when these horrible demons started popping out and I had to fight them because they were trying to kill me. Like I'm doing to myself.

"But I knew no help was coming from her." I growl.

"Are you kidding me? She goes out and picks berries and kills moose just for you, she loves you so much and you treat her like shit!" He yells at me, that's true she does all that crap just for me she even tried to make tea for me because she thought I might like it and I do.

"But we were mistakes, she doesn't love us." I add in.

"Yes and she dreads that we happened that way but we are her only family and the only things to love, you don't need to give her any more heart break." He starts to cry.

"She only loves you." I hiss.

"That's because I love her back, that's why you never notice how much she loves you." He expresses.

"No she doesn't! stop saying that, John hates me to now!" I scream.

"Why do you think everyone hates you? no one hates you!" He screams at me. I finally break his grip from my wrist and I roll of the couch and I grab my knife.

"Lilly, please don't do this!" He screams at me, but I'm not trying to kill myself anymore it's him I'm after for. "Lilly stop!" He screams. He runs into the kitchen and grabs one of mothers blood stained knifes but this one looks older.

"Lilly I think this is mothers first knife, the she killed her father with and our father with!" He announces. I don't give a shit what knife that it I just want to kill him. I start to lunge at him but he raises the knife for self defence and it cuts a long deep line on my chest.

"Holy shit! Why'd you do that?" I scream trying to stop the blood pouring out.

"I don't know! You were about to kill me!" He yells back trying to help stop the bleeding "I'm sorry." He adds in.