Anne

Chapter 16

Lilly POV

I really don't think he'll make it. James is just getting worse, mother really laid the smack down on him I'm really trying to make him feel better but I just don't know how. I'm no fucking nurse! Why do I have to take care of this fucking bastard, it's his own fucking fault he got put into this mess! He shouldn't of had hit mother, she was obviously unstable she was laughing at a wall for fuck sakes!

No use in trying to make him feel any better he'll just end up feeling more pain in the future. I should just kill him so he won't feel pain any more even though he'll go to hell and have internal suffering but whatever he would be safe from mother maybe he'll meet our father. I can't handle this! I can't kill him! I should just leave him out in the woods to die! Oh god I start crying, I can't fucking handle this! I'm only ten! What do normal ten year olds do? My whole life is just fucked up! I've been around death long enough I have to get out of here right fucking now and live a normal ass life-

"What the fuck ya doing?" Mother yells down at me holy shit I haven't seen her all day what has she been doing? "What? Are you deaf or something? What the fuck are you doing?" she yells again getting angrier I really don't need this bitch beating us again.

"I'm trying to make James better, you really fucked him up." I answer looking back at James, he's trying to raise his head up but failing.

"Why the hell are you bothering? Just fucking kill him." she announces slowly stepping down the steps.

"How could you say that? He's your son!" I yell at her she looks astonished like she didn't expect me to say that.

"He was born from rage, sadness, and abuse so were you! Why do you care about him! He has done nothing! He deserves all this shit!" She screams running at me she gets into my face "you are the same way, if you left I really wouldn't give a shit I would be happy." she whispers her nose is touching my nose I can feel every breath she takes it disgust me. I start to notice large gashes on her face when did she do that? How dare she say that! I spit onto her face she growls whips it of and she slaps me! She fucking slaps me! I fall onto the floor with a loud thump, what the hell just happened? I start to tear up but no I can't I won't let her win this time.

I stand right up and I punch her right in between her eyes she falls to the ground groaning. What the fuck did I do? Oh shit I'm going to have to pay for this! She is laying unconscious on the ground, I have to get James the fuck out of here before she wakes up and beats on us again. I drag him from the counter he falls to the ground with a big thump he moans and groans in pain I can't help but chuckle, why the hell am I chuckling? I just caused pain to my brother! Oh god is my mother rubbing off on me? I growl passing my mother, I hope she feels pain when she wakes up. I drag him deep into the forest until I find a rock that has sun beaming onto it. I lift him onto the rock and I kneel beside him.

"I'm so sorry, I can't fix you I would just make you worse mother would probably beat you again this is the only way." I pause, is this how I'm saying good bye to my brother? I will be all alone in this world I should be the one dyeing not James! It's all my fault I should've stopped mother better, I should've been stronger.

"I'm going to miss you." I end I hear him mumbling something.

"But.........why?" He tries to ask. What do I say? Our mother is a bitch and I don't want you to get hurt any more?

"I just can't help you! If I could you would just get hurt again, I don't want you to get hurt any more." I cry tugging at my hair. I wait for him to answer but he just stares at the sky, a tear rolls down his only open eye. I'm a horrible person doing this to my brother just leaving him out here to die.

"Okay." He finally mumbles, his voice is shaky I can see his hand trembling. "I-I...understand." he mumbles again he moves his head to look at me then looks back to the sky.

"Good bye." I finally say getting up looking at him one last time. Good bye forever my brother I'm so sorry. Tears roll down my face and I walk back to the cabin. My brother is practically dead, my mother has gone completely insane it's her fault this happened if she didn't go insane James would still be with us. I hope he dies slowly and peacefully, not eaten by wolves. The cabin is right in front of me should I go inside? Am I just going to be beaten by my mother? What going to happen if I go inside? I creak open the door and right away mother looks at me, smiles and bursts out laughing. I'm not going inside not now any way.