Whispering I love you

Hannah Jade

I couldn't help but groan and throw my head back as I hit the 3rd red light in a row. I was stuck in LA traffic. I know, I live in LA there is always traffic but after a long day of photo shoots and endless meetings I wanted nothing more then to pick up my boyfriend and spend the night cuddled up with him and the dogs. I stared at the light with such intensity I hoped that for once my power of thought could make the light turn green. As I waited and waited for this light to turn I felt my phone vibrate and flash from the cup holder. I quickly looked at the text preview from the lock screen, and smiled. It was just a small heart as a reply to the message I had sent to him earlier. I turned my attention to the road as the light turned green and I was able to turn on to the street I had grown familiar traveling down. I quickly parked by the curb, jumped out of the car, ran through the gate, and to the door. I didn't even bother knocking, I knew they wouldn't hear it anyway. 

I walked through the doorway and looked around, I quickly noticed the silence that surrounded me. I took a few more steps into the giant entryway only to peer threw the back glass door where I saw five grown boys sitting around a make shift fire pit. I smiled to myself and made my way down the hallway and to the door. I opened it only to be greeted by huge smiles. 

"HANNAH!!!!" I smiled and waved as I made my way around the small circle they sat in, walking straight to him and sitting myself in his lap. I couldn't help by squeal as his beard tickled my neck as he leaned in to kiss it. I turned in his lap to face him. I smiled and pecked his lips before again waving hello to him. 

I couldn't help but get lost in this small moment between us. We had been dating now for just over two years. When I had first gotten sick and lost the majority my hearing I thought my life was over. Yes my hearing aids help, but most the time I rely on people talking a little louder, and sign language as my form of communication. I never thought I would find someone who saw me as more then the deaf girl. Then I started youtube, and I really felt as though I wouldn't find anyone who wasn't just in my life because of my followers. That was until I was introduced to Elton.

 I had met him through some mutual friends, when I had ventured out to LA for my first Vidcon. I had wanted nothing more to collab with him and his channel TFIL. I had always been a little timid, but once I had lost my hearing I knew life was to short. TFIL is about being adventurous and living your life to the fullest. Whenever something scares you, just to 'send it' and know that you'll be a better person at the end.

I needed that push, to live life to the fullest and Elton  did nothing but push me in the best way possible. He helped me face my fears as well as do things I never thought I could ever do, like hang glide off a cliff or sky diving (both of which I am still not fond of). He has been nothing but supportive and given me all the love I could ever need. Through him I gained an amazing family and support system. Without him, I have no idea where I would be. I keep him grounded and he keeps me adventurous. We balance each other and I wouldn't have it any other way.  

"How did the shoot go?" He asked leaning away slightly allowing his hands to form some words as he talked. 

"Good! I can't wait to show you the final pictures." I said quietly as my hands moved in conjunction. I watched as he smiled and nodded in agreement. "What have you boys been up to?" I asked looking from him to the others. 

"Just talking about our upcoming TFIL trip." My eyes moved towards Heath who had answered my question. He was sitting there in his typical dad attire and fishing hat sipping on a can of beer. My eyes went wide and I quickly looked around the circle of boys, and then back to Elton. 

"Do they know where we are going?!" I said loudly my hands fumbling to follow. I felt Elton chuckle and nod as everyone else just smiled at me. "Thats not fair! I can't be the only one left in the dark!"

"Han, Its called a surprise for a reason." I turned quickly to Colby as he smiled and repeated himself, "If it makes you feel better we only know the first half, he's holding the second half of the trip a secret from all of us still. Just trust your boyfriend, I know he can be an asshole but just trust him." I glared at him and everyone else as they nodded their head in agreement. 

Elton had this brilliant Idea that our next TFIL trip would be secret. That he was going to plan a trip with two locations, and no one besides him was going to know. He tried to make it a complete surprise to me, but when my manager blocked out a few weeks in the middle of my summer for 'top secret trip' I demanded to know. I gave into the idea, well because it's going to make one heck of a video. Elton and the boys were filming little bits here and there to plan for the trip itself. Of course most of Elton's footage so far has been messing with me about the trip and me constantly trying to guess where we are going. I have spent countless nights texting everyone going and spending every time I would even see them, trying to get one of them to slip up and tell me. Unfortunately they love messing with me, I wasn't going to find out until Elton wanted me to....and that would be a real trust of our relationship. 

'Fuck-off' I signed which brought upon a laugh to the rest of the group. "I'm just happy that we leave in a few days. I need a vacation." 

"Im second that!" Sam yelled in agreement, as everyone but Jay nodded their head.

"I can't believe we are calling a TFIL trip a vacation. Have we also accepted death as a vacation?" I couldn't help but to laugh. Traveling with TFIL was always slightly stressful, Elton plans a lot so we can see as much as we can and do as much as we can with the small amount of time we have. As beautiful as our trips always are, they are also exhausting. I don't know what they have planned for this one, but something told me it might actually be a vacation trip and I could not wait. 

"Yes." Both Elton and Heath said together which earned a laugh from the group.

 I sighed in contentment and looked at Elton silently showing him again how tired I was feeling. He rubbed my back and moved me into a standing position and followed in suit.  We said our good-byes to the group and made last minute conversation on making sure everyone packed what they needed for the trip, as well as the plan on our departure in just a few days. I of course was making sure everyone had their passports and logistics.I looked around and noticed Elton and sam whispering back and forth. I wanted to ask but I knew it would be of no use, so I left it alone. After they were done talking we waved our final goodbye and walked out the door. I squeezed Eltons hand and threw him my keys running to the passenger side. Elton shook his head as he sat in the drivers seat and turned over the key. 

We both took a second to look at each others eyes and just smiled at each other. 

"I love you." I whispered 

"I love you too." He whispered back before pecking my lips and turning to the road driving us home for the night. 

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Authors note:

If anyone even will read this......This is just the first chapter, of a story that has been in my mind for a while that I am finally putting to words. I promise to give more background, on characters this is just the into I wanted to get out tonight.