Pizza...
The reason why I fell in love.
I used to call that a piece of shit.
I used to loathe it.
I used to cringe at it.
But because of a person.
All of the things I've said or thought reversed.
I loved pizza.
I loved pizza because of her.
She taught me how to try things first before saying bad things.
I used to deny my feelings for her before.
But here I am, still falling hard for her.
I used to be that emotionless and heartless bitch.
Now, here I am, a crazy whipped lover.
One of the best days was when she told me she loves me too.
I was the happiest girl in earth.
I don't smile often before.
But when I met her, she made me smile all the time.
She's the reason why I smile everyday.
She's the reason why I want to get up from bed.
She's the reason why life can be colorful.
She's my happiness.
Lisa...
By just hearing her name, I smile.
I love her.
I love her so much that it hurts.
We became together for years now.
'I'll never leave you. If I leave, I'll come back. I'll always come back for you.'
I always keep her words.
She always do what she says.
No matter how hard it is, she'll do it.
Well, that's my Lalisa Manoban we're talking about.
I love her.
But I fucked everything up.
It wasn't her fault.
It was mine.
I hate myself so fucking much.
I just wanna kill myself.
"You fucking kissed her!" I yelled at her.
"I did not kiss her! She's the one who kissed me! I didn't even know that she'd kiss me!" Lisa yelled back.
"Now you're mad? You could've pushed her!" Tears started to surround my eyes.
"I was surprised! I couldn't move for a second!"
"You know what? Fuck off. Go back to her." I walked to my car while tears started to fall.
The next day...
"Why won't you tell me where the fuck she is?" I yelled, frustrated, at Rosé who is looking at me coldly.
"Now you have the guts to show yourself to her after what you did?" She looked at me with disbelief.
"What I did?"
"Acting innocent now huh?" She turned her back and started to walk but I held her shoulders and faced her to me.
"Where is Lisa?"
"I said I'm not telling you."
"Then just tell me what I've ever done!" I let go of her shoulders and cried hard in front of her.
"You don't remember? You don't remember fucking with another girl?" I froze.
"W-what?"
"Oh come on. She got worried of you because you suddenly left. Then she went to your condo to see you fucking with someone." Rosé's eyes flared in anger while telling me that.
I didn't say anything but just dropped to my knees and started crying hard.
"I-I'm so sorry Lisa. I'm sorry." I mumbled.
I remembered going to the bar that day and got drunk.
Then I brought a girl to my condo.
Like what I used to do before.
I never saw Lisa after.
She just disappeared.
I even lost contact with Rosé and Jisoo.
They hate me. So much.
Who the fuck wouldn't?
I fucked everything up because of too much jealousy and anger.
About the words she told me before.
She left me and never came back.
I can't blame her tho.
I made her do that.
Now everytime I see pizza.
I'd just smile bitterly.
Good times...
