Wandering Hearts (Under Editing)

Withdrawals *Edited*

I wake up fully clothed for the first time in weeks, with my arm tucked around Elena and her body pulled comfortingly against mine. Ah yes, the awful time of the month in which her body hates her and decides to give her the worst pain known to man. I may not have felt it, and I don't understand how she's feeling, but I can tell when Elena's in a lot of pain.

She groans and rubs her eyes. "Damon, are you up?"

"Yeah. What do you need, baby?" She looks over at me.

"Stop being so nice, dammit. Be mean to me I've been so goddamn mean to you."

"Yes, but you are currently going through the most glamorous cycle of life known to man." She looks up at me and I kiss her softly. "Goddammit, I hate that we can't have sex." He chuckles. "I guess you'll have to learn just a little bit of self control, won't you?" She glares at me and I kiss her again softly. "Alright, here's what we're going to do. I'm going to go to the store and I will purchase every item you place on a list, including if you need tampons. I'll rent a bunch of movies and when I get home I will expect you downstairs in your comfiest pajamas and we will binge on food and movies." She smiles at me. "Damon Salvatore buys tampons?" I scoff. "Only for you," I mumble. She smiles at me. "Thank you." I kiss her head softly. Make a list. I'll go downstairs and make you some pancakes." She gazes up at me. "Why are you so good to me?"

"Because you're the best person I know." I kiss her then I head downstairs to begin making pancakes.

When I'm finished, she comes in the kitchen and hands me a piece of paper. "Thank you." She tells me. I smile and kiss her head. "Of course. The pancakes are ready, and I will be right back." I kiss her softly then I head out the door and I jump into my car. I look at the list and I chuckle at what I see.

Tampons
Maraschino Cherries
Milky Way Bar
Pickles
Lindt Truffles
Chocolate chip cookies
Peanut Butter
Celery
Vanilla Bean Frappe (Starbucks)
Gatorade
Tomatoes
Vanilla Ice Cream
Popcorn
Salsa
Nacho Cheese
Tortilla chips (lots of them)
Sushi

I go into the store and I begin walking around, looking for the items on her list.

After I have all the food, I head to the feminine hygiene section. I search for her brand then I get 2 boxes of tampons. I place them in the cart then I head to checkout. The woman begins scanning and the guy next to me laughs. "Can I ask what's so funny?"

"You're buying tampons, it's hilarious. Did you sister ask you to buy them for her? Couldn't get up off her lazy ass and get them herself?" The guy he stands next to laughs and high fives him. The woman shakes her head in dismay.

"Yeah, I am buying tampons. Except they're for my girlfriend who's currently at home wishing she didn't have to go through this bullshit every month. I will gladly go to the store and buy her tampons because she's the girl I love and," I shrug, "I would do anything for her." The guy rolls his eyes. "Be more respectful of women on their periods." I grab my bags. "They're the ones who carry children for nine months. Oh, and next week, when she's off her period," the woman chuckles, "I'll be the one getting laid." Everyone claps and I walk out of the store, carrying the bags to the car. I head back home and up to our room, putting all the bags on the floor. Elena lays in the bed fast asleep, and I smile at my sleeping girl. I frown.

She's not yours, dumbass. She may never be.

I sit down on the side of the bed and I brush the hair away from her face. She groans and opens her eyes, yawning. I smile at her. "I'm back." She smiles and bats her eyelashes at me. "Did you bring me deliciousness?"

"Absolutely. What would you like first, beautiful?" She rolls her eyes. "What?" I ask. She lifts a shoulder. "I'm not beautiful." I chuckle and sit down on the edge of the bed, kissing her lips softly. "You must be an idiot. Or blind."

"I'm really not. I'm just average. I'm not some blue eyed blonde goddess, I'm ordinary. Boring." I shake my head. "You are an idiot. And blind." She looks up at me. "Why do you always stay with me? Why are you still here?" I swallow anxiously. "You don't want me to answer that question," I whisper in return. I pull a chunk of her beautiful wavy hair through my fingertips and she stares up at me.

"What if I do want you to?"

"I know you don't, Elena." She strokes my face softly. "I know what you would say. I know you. I just wish you would trust me with your feelings." Suddenly my heart breaks. I stand up and tears prick at the edges of my eyes. "Trust you with my feelings, huh?" I pour myself a glass of bourbon.

"Yes. Open up to me." I down the glass then I look back at her. My shirt looks perfect on her, exposing her long olive toned legs. "I did open up to you." She cocks her head at me. "When have you ever opened up to me?" I begin walking. "You're the liar, Elena. Something is going on between us and you know it. You're lying to me, you're lying to Stefan, and most of all you're lying to yourself." She presses herself against the poster of my bed and swallows. "Your response? I care about you Damon. But I love Stefan. It'll always be Stefan." A tear falls down her cheek. "Things were different back then."

"Things aren't any different now. You still love him." She stares at me accusingly then pulls her hand back and slaps me across the face. "You know damn well I don't love him anymore! If I did I wouldn't be sleeping with you! God, what kind of person do you think I am?!?" She storms out of the room and I sit down on the bed. I can feel the tension in the house- and not the good kind. I'm an idiot. I AM A GODDAMN IDIOT. Why the hell would I say something like that? Am I really that low?

I head downstairs and Elena sits on the couch, her arms crossed over her chest. "Elena-"

"Don't. I can't do this with you right now." I kneel in front of where she's sitting. "Elena, I'm sorry. That was so harsh and I was wrong. But you have to know how confusing and hard all of this is for me. In the past when I put my heart out there... It ended up getting broken. So just please understand that I'm reluctant to open myself up to you because I don't want to get hurt again." She stares at me then a tear slips down her cheek.

"I hurt you?" I swallow before nodding solemnly. "Damon, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me."

"Elena, I wouldn't be here if I hadn't forgiven you. Back then, I was a monster. I knew why you didn't want to be with me and I changed myself for you. I made sure that I was good enough for you before we got to this point." She shakes her head. "You're perfect just the way you are. Damon, I don't know what I feel. I know I have feelings for you but I'm just so confused... Please give me more time to work things out."

"Of course I will. I know how hard it is. Just know that... I can't wait around forever, Elena. I would die for you. But eventually you have to make a choice." She nods. "I'm sorry. Damon I'm so, so sorry."

"Elena, relax. It's okay. I've forgiven you for everything."

"Promise?"

"I promise. Now come on, let's go eat food and watch disgusting romance movies." She laughs then nods and follows me up the stairs.