Pacify Her//Phan [Completed]

~12~

"You don't love her! Stop lying with those words!"

I was awoken to someone violently shaking me. I opened one of my eyes to take a peak at who it was. Oh Pj.

"Phil come on mate you're the only one left in this class." I lift my head to look around, like he said there truly isn't anyone around.

"Right...can't I just stay here?" Pj pulls up a chair and pulls it next to mine.

"Look, I can tell there's something off about you..what's wrong?" I contemplate whether I should tell him. In the end the angel on my shoulder won me over.

"It's...Dan." Pj let a small 'hm' as if he laughed a bit.

"I knew it, what did he do?" I started explaining what's been going on recently, all the way to what happened today.

"So he chose his girlfriend over you?" I nodded.

"Well want to know what I think?" I bring my eyes to meet his. Curiosity filling my head.

"I think you should forget his dumbass because if someone doesn't think of you as there number one when you think of them as the world then they aren't worth your time. One sided love usually ends up destroying someone and I don't want that to happen to you Okay Phil." The lump in my throat is back. What he's saying is true..I don't know how to feel about it.

"I know you might think it will be difficult but I'll be right besides you along with Chance..wherever that bugger is." As if on que he walks through the doors of the classroom. Holding two trays of food.

"Peej next time you text me saying where you guys are be more specific instead of saying 'the classroom with double doors' wanna know why? CAUSE ALL OF THESE CLASSROOMS HAVE DOUBLE DOORS!!" Pj just starts laughing. This puts the smile back on my face. I love my friends. When a tray gets put in front of me I give Chance a questioning look.

"What? I ate mine while looking for you guys. Eat it!" I thank him and start eating. This helps a bit. I'm starting to feel better. Thanks to my amazing friends of course. After a few chats lunch is over and we're off to our next class.

~2 months later~ (yes I'm too lazy to write sue me)

I've been doing a good job in my opinion on ignoring Dan. Yes sometimes through the halls we look at each other but I just walk faster. I ignore the stares he gives me. I wonder what he thinks is going on.

Dan's P.O.V

I'm so confused. I mean one second Phil and I are hanging out a lot but all of a sudden I stop seeing him and he ignores me. Did I do something? I need to talk to him about this because honestly I'm very confused. While walking to Health I spot Phil walking to Health as well I stop him and pull him into the guys restrooms.

Phil's P.O.V

How did I get here in a restroom alone with Dan? I give him a glare.

"Dan what's your problem?" I cross my arms and furrow my eyebrows.

"You. Why aren't you speaking to me anymore?" Is he being serious right now?!

"Oh I'm sorry I thought you'd rather be with your girlfriend." He rolls his eyes.

"What the fuck has gotten into you can't I have a best friend and girlfriend."

"I don't think so according to your decision." He looks confused for a second until his eyes go wide. Yup he remembers.

"Phil-"

"Dan it's fine seriously. You chose your girlfriend over me and it's totally fine." He rests his hand on my shoulder.

"Phil no it's just I love her and of course I had to choose her. Plus I don't know why it's such a big deal you could've still talked to me and not care about her. Why is it suddenly this huge thing?" I didn't want to say it but it just slipped out.

"Because I love you Dan!" I quickly cover my mouth. Oh god.

"P-Phil um you don't mean that."

"Dan yes I do I've liked you for a while even before you knew I existed but I never said anything. I was afraid of the consequences. Soon that like turned to love and I just couldn't help myself. So when I heard you choose her over me I didn't know what to do." Dan is in a state of shock and I don't blame him.

"Phil I'm sorry but I can't return those feelings..you know I'm straight and have a girlfriend...why would you fall for me?" Something I ask everyday.

"I don't know Dan okay! I cant control it!" I press my back against the bathroom wall and let myself slide down. My head in between my knees. I didn't want to cry AGAIN but I couldn't help myself. Stupid eyes.

"I'm sorry but I can't be with you I can't I'm straight Phil please understand! You might find someone else but I'm not that someone get over me!" It seems as though Dan is angry. Why? I don't know. He walks out of the bathroom.

I'm so stupid

I hate myself

Why did I have to love him.

I could've avoided this

But I was too stupid...

I get up grab my backpack and run to my house. The day barely started and I already couldn't handle it. I'm going to get over Dan I need to at this point.

Once I get to my room I plop myself onto the bed and sleep for a while. My dreams are always better than my reality. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep and never wake up. Never having to face the real world full of terrors, love, and heartbreaks. Sadly all good things come to an end at some point.... sometimes even before you get to enjoy them.

Oh how I wish I could sleep forever.

What's up peeps! I updated cause I felt like it today. Plus listening to music helps a lot. While writing this I was listening to Stray Kids right now the song playing is "Glow" the rap line is so impressive I swear. My favorite song is Hellevator and my second favorite is District 9. If you don't know who they are check them out it's Kpop..(my bias is Felix btw and my bias wrecker is Jisung) bye my Corn dogs❣️