Forgetting I ever loved a Full-Buster

I have to love me more than I love him (edited)

Juvia pov

I woke up early and it's a beautiful day so i immediately begin to get ready for it. I want to make a really nice bento box for Juvias dear Gray- sama. I know, I know. 'He'll never love you....' one part of my mind tells me.... 'but it doesn't hurt to try right??' The counter part comes in right away.

I'm a bit discouraged about the whole thing actually. I dont even talk in third person all the time anymore when I'm around him... I do that honestly because i get nervous around him. But I don't really get as nervous anymore. I feel indifferent towards him now..... I sigh and make breakfast.

I begin to make the bento box I start with the rice rolls, then I rolled the buns with chicken in it and fry it. And so on. Its really nice to live a 'boring' routine sometimes surprisingly. As I finish up I make no real effort to make it pretty so much as a way to make sure he eats good fresh food throughout a day.

I finish my breakfast and make my way towards the guild. Team Natsu is suppose to be coming back today from a mission and I just want to show him that I'm still thankful to him for helping me see the sun and all he's been in my life these 7 years??? I ponder (I'm 30 but only 23 now)...

.....

Right, I get focus, work out, go shopping, grab some flowers, and basically run errands all before walking to the guild.

Team Natsu is there. I'm happy to see them. Natsu and Lucy are checking each other out and flirting. While Gray and Erza talk. I stopped calling Lucy love rival after she started dating Natsu officially and I helped him buy the ring since we figured out lucy and I have the same ring size. It's a secret no one knows but me actually. They're really adorable.

'Juvia wishes Gray sama will show Juvia that type of affection.' The pain stings for a minute. I inhale and accept the reality. Man she's a a true bitch but Oh well I guess.

I put my groceries down and walk over their table. Here goes nothing.

Gray pov

"Get a room guys!" I say glaring at Natsu and Lucy.

I look at the door again. I don't know what I'm waiting for. Or who I'm waiting for. 'I really do know... I just can't admit it's. That's something I'm not really ready to touch yet.

Right on time, Erza stops eating her cake and eyes me. I know that look... "What?" I feign stupid "Did you resolve you feelings for Juvia?" she ask directly. I flinch as if she slapped me. Natsu and Lucy stop flirting and look at me "No, not really" I say.

Once again irony plays as Juvia walks in wearing her usual attire and with groceries and flowers in hand.

Mavis I hope those aren't for me. She sits her stuff down and starts coming over with a box in her hands. After seeing natsu and lucy be all affectionate all week I'm really not in the mood 'but honestly' I think to myself 'am i ever in the mood' I think?'

"Well no time like the present" Erza urges as she gets up from the table."You wanna come over Natsu?" Lucy asks. "Sure" they get up too. Perfect. Now I'm stuck and I don't have a clue what to say. I'm in my thoughts as she greets me "hey Gray sama."

"Hey"
"How was the mission?"
"fine."
"Did you all just get back?"
" Yeah"

She looks at me for a minute and I look back
.........

"Juvia made you this. I don't know if you're hungry or not but I just wanted to show you my gratitude again after all this time." She says with sadness and irritation in voice and on her face. I put my hand out but she just stares.

"Are you going to give it to me or not?" I ask plainly coming off bored.

"Do you want it? You don't have to accept it if you don't want to."